oops, i was late for ytd's work, and it was due to my carelessness again!
i rmb de wrong time, i tot i start work at 430pm, but actually it's 4pm!!!
ooops... heng they didnt scold or say anything.. =)

one of the managers, Gay, slip n fall down ytd, n broke some plates..
i was at the other side of the restaurant, so didnt see it.
hope she's fine...
hmm, they really should put osme rubber mat on the kitchen floor, it's really damn slippery when wet, n most of the time, de floor's wet...

ytd was quite okay, nt very busy, hahaha.. n somemore, got this supervisor, Jia Hao there helping me..
yay!!!!

hm, after work, went to mac with Jason n Ah Y... they eat.....
i dun know them, onli know them for few days onli..
but till now, i feel that they're nt as bad as how they looks...
hmm, cant judge a bk by it;s cover eh..
but who knows....

get to know 2 new ppl, Ah Fen n Zell, they sell ice-cream de, hahaha
tt's all le ba..
n gd luck yao jing, tml's ur first day of work...
JIA YOU!!!! =)

~End~

8/09/2007 wednesday
hm, i accompany Qiao Fei to PS to see her hubby, Luo Zhi Xiang in the morning,
haha, n she gets so excited when seeing him, anyway, we manage to stand @somewhere near de stage, so de view was quite not bad...
quite handsome de, but his dancing is awesome!!!! hhahahah...

lunch at yoshi, n chill at TCC, haha..
didnt do much, was feeling tired n restless then..
feel sick too...
den went to work at 4++...
work=busy...
hahaha...
tt's basically wad happen on wed


9/09/07
working full day for ytd..
i was doing de runner job, n haha, i cant handle it alone, NO AT ALL!!!!
for runner, i've got to serve de drinks, salad, miso soup, rice to customer, sound's kinda easy aint it? However, it's nt as easy as it sounds. the rice n soup cant be serve anywhen i like, i got to do it at de right timing, when de chef's cooking tt customer's food......
hell moo, how would i know de chef's cooking whose!
n other than all those serving, i've also got to take care of my small squeezy station, topping up de water n blah blah...
hahah..

n oh ya, i fall down twice due to de slippery wet floor..
first time is when i'm at my station, preparing the miso soup.. i wanna go throw something, den i didnt know tt de floor's wet, n tata, i slip n fall n had my butt landed hard on de floor..
so malu, n scary...
吓得我哭了几滴泪... =(

den de 2nd time was after de closing, i'm off to change..
haha, once again, i didnt see tt de floor's wet, n i fall AGAIN!!!
sianz...
de every staff in de shop saw it!!!! >.<
eeeeeeee, n wahahaha, i;m de first to fall down, n also, first person tt fall 2 times in one day..
haiz..

pain sia, went home n discovered tt i've got a couple of bruise and cuts on me..
lol...

going to work soon...
hope today i wont be tt shuay le...

haiz haiz..

hm, went for a interview in de morning, den later on, went down to town to meet clover.
i had a interview @ orchard, but i wasnt in the mood for anything, n clover didnt really like to work in the shop also, so we didnt went for it..
so just did some window shopping @ Mango~ =)
didnt really know how to appreciate all these branded stuffs, but some items were nt bad, just tt a price is abit high, =)

@345pm, i went to PS for work, and clover went home...

last night, friday, 2nd day of work, dinner time was busy, so kinda confusing.....
nearly slip n fall for 2 times last night,
first time was when i was serving customer her hot green tea n salad.
heng i wasn't holding too many things in hand, if nt, i sure scald myself.

2nd time was when doing the closing, some1 just mop de floor, n i didnt know, so walk pass, slip, nearly fall but had injured my right elbow there, just a small cut.

lol...

2nd day @ work, em, still nt so heavy i think, still can cope..


ytd i wasquite restless, not in the mood for anything, and damn de stupid stomach, like to play games with me, weak n lousy stomach!
get a bit upset abt wad de agent said, but i think he didnt mean it ba, watever~~

hmm, tt's all.. sore throat now..
sianz....

first day work @ sakae tepanyaki

hm, today's my first day at sakae tepanyaki @ plaza Sing.
em, morning wake up, did nth, feel sickish
ate breakfast at 12++pm n had a minor diarrhoea, den 2++pm had lunch n i went to work.
gosh, y so shuay de, when i was on the train to dobby ghaut, i had this terrible stomachache and the urge to run to toilet to settle some business, sianz..
so no choice but to control lo.. lol

hm, reach plaza sing, went to find de restaurant, n get de uniform n changed.
wad de, they give me L size skirt, which is obviously too big for me, but no choice, they onli have L size, so i wear lo, too long too ugly le, den one of the staff there, joanna, told me to fold in!!!
LOL..
hahaha,
n oh, basically, i didnt do much today, today i onli help to clear n clean the tables n set the tables only.
quite often, i was stonning somewhere, dunno wad to do.
LOL
but overall today's still okay, tml's friday, there's got to be lots of ppl, OMG OMG
hope everything will be find tml..
hahaha

wee, i was given a box of beard papa's puffs.. FREE FREE wee wee..
but by de time i reach home, my parents are slping, my kor's serving his NS, ahha, so onli left me..
but still i'm happy~ =)

hmm, first day at sakae tepanyaki, so i cant really say much abt it..
but i'm missing de chatterbox's chefs, humourous, always seem so carefree n blah blah.. bring so much colours into my life when i was working there... =D



i'm tired n i feel sickish..
ahhhahahaha

tt's all..

still, i'm trying hard to smile.. =)

went to interview @ Cycle and Carriage Industries Ptd Ltd at 9am this morning, and it didnt turn out to be gd, first i was LATE!!! sianz, suppose to be there be4 9 de, but i got lost n when i had my interview, it's already 9.09am. haiz
n hm, didnt really do well in the interview also, i was told to talk abt myself, but i seriously had nothing to talk abt de, n the interviewer also ask me to tell him abt my personality and characteristic, and i, always feel tt this type of things is let ppl to judge and nt really i myself says it. ya, n if i really need to say abt myself, it will turn out tt i dun have any gd points, if so, den y bother tell de interviewer??

LOL, so overall, interview was kinda screwed up.
hm, interview ended @ around 9.30am, went to Qiao Fei's house to slack, n we went KBOX tgt tt afternoon.. ~
yay, KBOX, hahaha
but my singing's bad, haha, unbearable type de, unliike Qiao fei's..
haha, de difference in standard is so big that i feel so inferior n dun really dares to sing at some times..
ahhaha



Sakae sushi called me this afternoon to report for work tml, 4.30pm.
finally had a job, but i'm still going for interviews on friday, 2 interviews, one for admin assistant, another for sales @ isetan in de shaw house.
hmm hmm, dunno if i'm able to get de job nt, haha,hopefully is yes , den i can take 2 jobs at one go, n $$$$ will flow in like water~ LOL $_$

haha, i'm getting greedy..


i feel sorry for my inconsiderate..
haiz..

but overall, today's still a quite gd day i think.. =)

last night,
got a scolding cum lecture from my brother because of the network marketing thingy.
haiz, i felt so stupid when my bro scold me, sad siah.
n my brother said this,
"because i care, tt's y i'm interfering n scolding u now. If it's some other ppl, i wont even bother abt it."

hmm, a very familiar phrase that i'd once heard it from some one else...
n only till now, then i fully understand it..
haiz...


tt network marketing person called again, n i dun dare pick up~~~!!!
ARH!!! sianz..
haiz...

MUAHAHHAHAHA

omg, just realised something,
i haven really been eating these few days..
max 2 meals/day, ytd worse, one meal onli..
LOL...

sianz, what's wrong with my appetite again??
weird weird..


hmm, anyway, went to Recruit Express @ Jurong East early in the morning, went there, same thing, fill in the forms, short interview, n go home.
tt's all..

seems tt many ppl went back to CCHMS today, n i didnt...
sort of regret abt it, but haha, wads de point of saying all these now..

anyway, went to taka for interview again, haiz..
i'm just so sick of all these endless interviews,
n i dun think i'll get short listed this time..
sianz...

anyway, tt's roughly wad happen today..
nth much..
just another boring day~

Job Searching..

hmm, didnt do much today, stayed at home till de evening, busy flipping through the straits times classified ads, searching for suitable jobs.
i cant recall exactly how many calls i made today, but though i called a lot of places, few are satisfying..
they either want permanant part-time or full times, if nt, onli work on weekends, which to me, was not wad i want..
y cant i just find a temp job man, i've given up de hope of finding a permanant part-time job as how many employers will really want employees tt are able to work onli on weekends when sch term starts?.. few siah..
haiz, called a lot of places, a couple of them asked me to down for interview, but i think i'm nt going for almost all of it ba, kinda sianz, n also, i HELL dunno where's that place..
ahhaha...
n now, haha, looking at de small notebook which i scribble all those adds of the interview areas, i damn damn dunno what i'm interviewing for siah, ahha, didnt note all de details nice n neatly down ... =.=lll

hmm, anyone heard of NETWORK MARKETING???
i somehow joined this network marketing company when i dun even know wads tt..
n now, i was told to buy their own products, and the core product is mattress that have magnets in it, and cost up to thousands.. FAINT!!!!
where on earth do i have tt huge sum of $$!!!
though they say it can be earned back n blah, but i still don have de slightliest intention to purchase something tt X!!!
n wad man, have earn any$$ yet den need to spend le..
sianz, looks like my $50 on de membership thingy is wasted, totally wasted..
but HELP!!! i dunno how to reject...
haiz haiz...
sianz sianz...

hahaha..

was feeling moody recently, again..
but pris called just now, asking me abt if i gg tml, complained a couple of things to her, and i felt much better after that, maybe i just need to find some1 to pour to.. =)

tml nt going back to cchms, had interview at Recruit Express@ jurong at 10am.
so by the time i reach CCHMS, it would be 11++am some where near 12 noon i suppose, by then, de celebration would have ended and ppl would have all left..
so nt gg tml..

had another interview @ 4pm @ taka 3rd floor de departmental stores there..
oh my, WHERE DE HELL IS TT??
I SIMPLY HAD NO IDEA ABT IT..
n i seriously had no interest to go all the way to orchard just for a few mins of interview, but now's a bit too late to ask ppl out le i think..
haiz, so looks like tml i'll go alone n go home straight after tt interview, provided if i can find tt place...
anyway, taka again, felt a bit OOTS haha, becoz of de cashier thingy..


felt kinda bad, had been pushing away outings for a couple of times le..
i'd try to go next time.. =)

went to the Recruit Express there for interview, anyway, tt's an agency that will help u to find jobs, if i nt wrong..

den went to n.y.d.c.@ wheelock for interview, part time server..
de manager there, whoah, look so fashion lo, n she looks V. young, really...
n i pass my interview, they want me..
but de pay there was, em.. a bit, less i would say, $5/hr..
i was expecting more..

went to sakae@ cineleisure for interview too,
de pay there also $5/hr, but it'll raise to min. $5.50 after working for 90 hrs..
but i dunno if they want me nt yet, latest notice by this fri...

went to Thai Express for dinner, whoah, tt food there nt bad siah, haha.. yummy
n thx oh, hyperkid, for the treat..
n we pooled tgt after tt..

i want a job, n i SERIOUSLY need one..
well, actually, jobs are everywhere, but it's just a matter of if u want it or nt,
yup, tt's how i feel..


soft hearted, nt a gd thing....

hmm, bad day..
went to de taka there to report for job, but somehow de person tt called me was on MC today, n the other staffs told me that they had no record of me suppose to report for work today. HELL man. n i was told to go home just likedat...
a bit fed up, a bit disappointed.
but on the other hand, i was a bit worried.
coz when tt person called me last friday, i had forgotten which day i was to report for work, whether it's de next day which was last sat, or today, Mon.. i dunno, so i assume it's today coz tt's de day i told de person i'm able to start work..
but i really dunno, maybe it's my mistake..???
QF says better call back tml n check, yea, maybe, but i was real worried tt i was the one that had make this mistake..
n wadever, now de job's gone, n i'm JOBLESS again~!!!! anyone got job to intro??
lol...
hahaha, think tt should be all le ba, got to start searching for job again...

=(
will i be able to find a job be4 my holiday ends? i wonder...

playing with fire, dangerous yet thrilling.
堕落

i dun understand wad guys are thinking, why would a guy want to show a female his private part??
sick man~
n de more i dun understand is what me myself was thinking at that point of time..
should have just listen to MC, blocke n delete this sick man!
instead, i even continue to talk to him on msn, YUCKS!!!!
i must be nuts! hate tt..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GET LOST PERVERTS!!!!!!!!!!

meet up with clover at 2pm at jurong point, searching for a part time job.
yooHOO!!! haha.. clover's a violet-eyed demon!!!! ahhaha
em, it looked a bit weird at first, but after some time when i'm used to it, it seems to be okay..
but next time dun buy violet ba...
dont really suit u that much...
so, CHANGE COLOR NEXT MONTH BA~

hmm, haiz..
y ppl onli want Full time workers and not part time workers?
felt a bit discouraged when we get turn down.. =(
cant find any part time jobs we want at jurong point, n we kept on running into this pair of couple from NRA...
sianz...


de takashimaya ppl called, n i'm asked to go there on monday..
to start work or??
starting to feel worried, i scared i cant handle what i was given,
i'm afraid of disappointments...
n also, this job is onli temporary, seasonal-based.
so it would mean that i'll be jobless again once the need is gone, and i'll have to find a new job again.
how i wish i'm able to find a permanent part time job, ensuring my finance all the way even when i'm schooling..
but this seems to be tough...


i want a PERMANENT PART-TIME JOB!!!!!!

POOL!!!!!

haha, meet de YAO's at clementi today..
went to play POOL again~!!!!
haha, we played for V. long time siah, from 2pm to near 7pm+ siah
hahaa.. n de bill for our table $40.50!!!
OMG!!! so ex, n we even open a second table somemore..
ahhaha..
saw ren yao's bf, haha.. n oh ya, both of them can play well siah...
hahahah...
xue mi n yong jia came half way, n haha, i must say tt they are fast learners, V fast learners..
they can play much better than me even though it's their first time playing...
eeeee..... LOL
den yaojing Clover left halfway to meet her friend..
hahaha, she's really a laughter-producing machine siah..
haha. it's so hilarious to have her around..
hahah, i love ya HARD YAO yooHoo!!! accompanied by de Y-shape pose!!! ahahha.. nice 1.. =D
POOL was fun,
n it's V. fun with de YAOS!!!!


haha.. after pool, me, mag jess renyao n xuemi have our dinner tgt, carrot cake..
lol.. n they all cant finish their carrot cake siah, ONLI ME manage to finish all... lol
hahaha..
okay, overall, today's a FANTASTIC DAY!!!!!

ahhaha
i play pool play till my arms feel so sour.. maybe my posture's nt right ba..
hahaa..

hmm, felt quite empty today, no sch no exam no anything..
nth to do, so i went to mop floor n cook lunch for both my brother n i..
macaroni, turn out to be nt bad, quite gd for me who was first time dealing with macaroni..
ahhaha

Oh my..
i saw a big fat cockroach roaming in my room just now!!!
YUCKS!!!! i caught it running past me for 3 times!!!!
there's no one at home just now, so i got to take de newspaper n whack it myself!!!
n damn to de cockroach, it so smart de lei.. ran to those corners where i cant reach..
so haiz.. de COCKROACH'S STILL SOMEWHERE HIDING IN MY ROOM!!!!

damn...
pls pls.. pls dun fly to my bed.. i will faint de..
LOL

hahaha..
tml pool again~
yay..


i hope de takashimaya ppl will call..
ahahhahahaha
okay tt's all....
=D

POA paper today, n it's de last paper for me.. =)
hope i get all my calculations correct, n i just discovered something, i forget to cancel away de wrong answers that i did for question 1.
i got another set of answers on the 2nd page of ans booklet, but i forget to cancel away de unwanted ans on de first page of ans booklet!!!!
OMG!!! i just hope that the marker will be kindly enough to mark the answers on the second page rather than those on first page.. pray pray...

after POA paper,
me, xuemi, huikuoon,mag, jess, clover and sinli went to town, eat n POOL!!!! hohoho
i cant play well, yep i cant, lousy aiming for me..
haha.. n clover!!! u say u dunno how to play, in de end u play till so steady siah~
cheat my feelings.. LOL

oh, me n clover went to de takashimaya there to interview for cashier job at taka.
hmm, if i had decided to tell them we can start work from tml, den think the chances of us getting the job is much higher than now ba..
haha... wad am i thinking at tt point of time sia..
weird me weird brain..

exams over, time to rest slp n eat...
haha...
n i really need a job siah, i'm near bankrupt!!!!! haiz..

hahaa...
overall, today's fun fun fun~
haha...

i go slp le.. yay~ =D

hmm, haven been really slping these few days.. had been slping for less than 3 hr/ day on thurs, fri, and ytd..
been busy doing my last min mugging..
n know wad will lack of slp give rise to??
an outburst of temper, hostility at home....
sianz...
sometimes i really feel that my family's quite unlucky to have me this child.. lol

hmm, today's macro's bad, so many theory qns, though most of time i had read it last night, but still, my pea-brain's nt functioning, cant rmb all de notes tt i tried to memorise last night.. so, lots of blanks..
i just hope for a pass, let me pass pls~

poa tml, n i haven really study yet..
too tired to study le.. haha..

alright, time to mug.. =/

have been engross in reading my comic for these few days despite the fact that i haven study for my final exams n i still have 2 more papers to go..
dunno wad am i thinking, must be mad i think..
but haha.. just cant control my urge to finish de comic siah.
nice comic siah..
《鬼眼狂刀》 haha, though there are some obscene pages, n it's mainly abt violence n fighting n so on, but i still like this comic lots.. =)
haha...

now, tml's macro n i haven study yet...
all those GNP GDP, money supply n demand n so on...
OMG...
i'm going to have a hard time now..

nt feeling well, but YAY~~~
appetite's increasing~ LOVE IT!!!! =D

okay... time to study...
oops, haven mop floor yet.. HAIYA, heck la, wait till all my exams end first ba.. =D

tata

hmm, tml's de exam, n still, i didnt study much for today~
onli touch some of blaw.. but nth much really went into de brain, try asking me some blaw qns, n i'll give u think blank look!!! LOL hell moo moo la..

anw, few days ago, i found this webbie which i can view my comic online for free..
n tt's wad i've been doing everyday now siah..
die die la, haha.. y like dat one..
i cant help but to go to de webbie n see de comics lei, when i'm supposed to read my notes n books..
hahaha..

this sat have HM fireworks, feel like gg, but de prob is tt i still got 2 exams next week on mon n tues n i haven studied for them yet..
shall i or shall i not i wonder..
haha...
i'm gg nuts soon...


my appetite's still nt back yet..
cant even finished my nasi lemak siah..
sianz.. eat till wanna go puke again.. wanna force de food down also cant.. sianz..
i miss my appetite.. i wanna eat!!!!

haha.. tt's all...
bb...
comic time~ =D

some updates for today..
didnt really study, did some notes on de POA-GAAP ( Generally Accepted Accounting Principles)
hmm, nt really notes i'd say, i'm basically copying out the slides, coz didnt print them out..
but i didnt finish copying as my kor came n took over the com when i'm half way copying.. so yea.. time to stare at TV....

went out to dine with "-short-hyper-kid" at IMM, ate this shrimp dumpling noodle, it costs me $4.50 siah, nt cheap, so regardless of how no appetite i'm, i still manage to force down de whole bowl of noodles, coz cannot waste my $$ siah.. >.< but it's nt filling siah..

reach home, ate a bit rice, actually, i ate less than 2 spoonful of rice siah, n few spoons of soup n i gave up eating le.. coz cant continue le, de more i try to eat, de more i feel like PUKING!! damn, wads wrong with me.. i'm nt full yet but i manage to eat.. -.-lll
i used to eat quite a lot de, y now like so OMG...=.=


so damn sianz, i felt de hunger but i dun feel like eating..
haiz...

study study.. i seriously need to get down n study in order to pass my exams..

suddenly feel that i hate my current self..
yep..
doing things tt's so unlike me.. eg... i dunno too.. just feel so, n get disgusted by wad i did..

exams start on fri, n i'm still here doing bullshit...
sianz...
i said i'd study today, but.. turn out maybe no..
haven touch a single thing on my law n macro, n not forgetting tt damn BMGT!!!

sianz sianz..

simply...
JUZ HATE IT!!!!!



maybe it's just another mood swing.. maybe..

friends we shall be..

okay, finally asked him de Qns, n yep, my instincts are right..
like wad my friends had said..
move on~ gy

i dunno if i can do tt.
but i'll try.. give me some time n i'll sure get over it de...



*....friends we shall be....*


haven do this for quite some time le..

SMILE GY!!! =D

..........开不了口.........

added KK on msn n friendster..
hmm, wonder if we're able to keep in contact this way..
i like to keep in touch with ppl tt're gd..
yep, tt somehow reminds me tt i'm blessed, n xing fu de..



didnt have much to blog abt,
everyday was just eat n slp n play game..
less than 1/8 of each day is spend on studies..
think i'm gonna fail all my modules too.. repeat?? HOLY NO!!!
pls, let me proceed to de next sem pls....




there's something which i really wanna ask u...
but somehow, it's just so hard to be said out i think..
de fear tt everything will end once it's asked is keeping me back...
i've got this instinct that the answer will be disappointing and all the little hopes i'm clinging on will den be crushed, still, i really wanna know tt ans, regardless how hurtful it may be..
..........开不了口.........



i love this song lots..
nice song by Eason..
爱 情 转 移
Ai Qing Zhuan Yi

i dunno wad to blog...

feel like blogging something, but dunno if i should/shouldnt

friends vs "friends"
blog vs dun blog

will blogging help to settle de things troubling me? doubt so
will blogging change anything? don think so
wad will happen if i didnt make tt decision??
will u read all these??
will u care abt it??
will all these irritates u more??

i cant think now, i'm at a mess now..
just wanna vent something out, yep


smiling n laughing is easy,
wads tough to achieve is the real happiness that ur heart feels...

******************************************************************************
1.57am, wed, 08/08/2007

just realised tt i've never tell u tt 3 words in ur face be4..
i feel like crying now......

wads wrong?? lol

something is nt right with my com,
when i view my blog using Mozilla FireFox, de font colour for profile 's brown, but when i view it using Internet Explorer, de font change to HOT PINK!!!! >.< style="font-weight: bold;">

Mozilla FireFox.....................................................................


Internet Explorer.................................................................................................

hmm, had my BCA exam today at 5.20pm..
but me n clover meet in sch at 1230pm,
sin li came too

we went the library to study, fake tt we got book de project room n stayed in there for quite some time... n oops, those tt really had book de room came in n say " sorry, we had book this room."
!!!! damn malu, packed our things n went to 3rd floor, settle down at a spot near de corners n start revising our EXCEL!!!!

hmm hmm, something's wrong with fujitsu lappie siah,
the datatable cant be done by fujitsu lappy lei!!!!
both sin li n clover tried le all cannot, but LENOVO's can!!! MUAHAHAHa
so afterall, lenovo's still nt tt bad huh~
lol..
funny clover, she started going her " Fujitsu S**ks!!!*
lol..
u should look at de way she say it, damn hilarious, i cant help but to laugh like mad in de library.. lol

at 5pm, we packed up n went to blk 46 for de BCA exam,
was hoping to get de back seats, but hell moo, we're de latest..
so no choice but de front seats..
we were noisy i think, but heck la, no mood for how others thinks..

BLOODY hell lab com, hanged half way during de exam, n i even had to raise hand to call de invigilator to help me, but me too short n de lab com too HUGE, feel so paiseh lei... >.<
anw, heng i got save my work, if nt i cry siah..


bca's still alright i think, pass should be okay for me...
17aug's approaching...

hmm, feel so moodless again....
hmm..
hm.... gb time... =)

moodless..........

there's too much tots in my mind now, n i just cant express them out..

today's nt a gd day for me..

no appetite for a couple of days,

cant buy de clothes i like due to my financial constraint,

bro said some unrespectful words to mama,

mama got angry n start to nag at me..

come on la, i've aldy got my own prob le, n i really nt in de mood for ur nusiance la...

settled some problems, my dear shinny slipper also got problem too, so bought myself a new pair of slippers, just anyhow choose de somemore.. sianz..



went shopping at Central with qiao fei in the afternoon,

den went to bugis n had dinner with kenny at 7plus.

had pasta mania,

i got myself this creamy chicken de thingy,

but wa~ no appetite today n it's cheesy also,

so didnt eat alot..

after dinner go round walk a bit..

was quite talkative n chirpy today.

smiled n laughed n joked,

but the tears n sadness were burried underneath de smiles n laughters., and they are causing my heart to bleed..

well, maybe i'm a born actress (poker face) , i hide my emotions pretty well i suppose.. =/



did a bit of chatting at de platform, forced u to say out some of ur tots, but u still kept alot to urself..

diff. definitions, diff. views..
felt this tinge of joy when i heard u saying abt ur views n tots,
coz u rarely tell me anything except all those sweet talks..
but well, no point saying all of it now..

time to end de old n start the new..

watched u board de train thru de reflections of de glass door..

watched u left with de train..

all de happiness left n nothing was left behind..

一股忧伤突然涌上心头，

强忍住泪水，踏上了回家的 train

hmm, manage to smile n left........

hmm, looks like nt all things go against me...

reached home, access denied, expected but still....

hmm....

nvm...

i'm in no mood for anything..

tml bca exam, can i survive??

enough rubbish,

time to get some slp..

ByE~

Hi~

BAD DAY!!!!

haiz, simply hates my carelessness...
wanna go bugis with de rest to shop de, n meantime i can take a look out for some1's present..
but due to my carelessness, i lost my wallet, which has $70++ in it, in de canteen 2!!!!
haiz..
so in de end no shopping for me..


hm... must really thx my friends, for de effort to help me search for my wallet, n comforting me ..
n thx xue mi, sin li, jessica for lending me de money~
tt's y i can take bus n go home, if nt haha, maybe i'll need to walk home i think..
n MC!!!! weee... i love de coffee bean mocha ice blended..
hahaha.. yummy~
n gan xie wor, hahah..
for hear me keep on repeating de $70 + $21= near $100 complain..
lol...
u even help me to finish de story.... MUAHAHHAHAHA


reached home, told my parents i lose my wallet, n i lied to them that it somehow dunno when fall out of my bag, n i lied tt there's onli maybe abt $50++ in it, so heng, no scoldings, just some remarks n naggings onli. they know me too well, i'm dumb n careless, n Y CARRY SO MUCH MONEY WITH ME!!!!!
haiz...
n DUMBO la,
this is de 2nd time i lost my wallet this yr,
first time there wasnt much $$ in it, but my IC n ATM card's in de wallet..
this time, no IC no ATM card in wallet, but my $70++, our onli neoprints, our movie tickets, my ezlink..

haiz...
looks like i really got to be more alertive abt my valuables~~~!!!!! =)


though today's a bad shuay day~
but becoz of all my friends' concern,
somehow, it's nt tt bad afterall.. =D

WEE my kor rocks~!!!!

haha, thx to my kor n de modem he brought back months ago, i can now finally use my lappy to go online!!!! wee =D

haha...
now i can finally tell him " i try de modem alrdy n IT CAN BE USED!!!!"
haha..
he's been nagging me on this for dunno how many weeks le, n i'm just too lazy to try, coz need to connect a couple of things siah, troublesome la~
hahaha...

tml bugis shopping after sch...
wee..
got to take a look out on SOMEONE'S present too.. * pee pee =P
but wad to buy siah~ no idea no idea la...
hahaha..

Tell me, what's going to happen next?
de insecurity, de uncertainty, everything's nt feeling right..
i can feel the fear in me...
so tell me, what's next....?

===================================================================

saw u online, but was hesitating if i should go talk to u..
it seems like i dun really dare to do it..
anyway, 只希望你好就好了.....

why go round doubting abt ur existance? =)

yea y eh?
sometimes ppl will qn themselves abt why are they born in this world, why is it that it's him/her tt's given birth to n nt others....
well, i dunno why too..
there's no ans to it i suppose..
n i think there's no point to ponder on these qns too as u arent gg to get a correct ans for it...

but u can think it this way.
there must be a reason for y de creator brought u here..
ur existance had n will brighten up a lot ppl's life, bring smiles n joy to those u care..

picture this...
wads de first expression of ur mom when she first carries u in her arms? it's a =D right~
tt joy tt happiness, it's gonna be a life-long memory of hers..


think abt ur friends, u give them de comfort when they're down, u give them accompaniment n etc..

no point keep giving the examples..

u, are useful in a way or another, it's just a matter of if u had discovered it yet..
n y go keep thinking abt the qns mentioned above??
it'll do u nth but many more doubts of urself,
y nt go think abt what u can do to make urself more useful n make ur existance more meaningful n worthwhile..??

===================================================================
...... i simply hates de feeling of unable to express myself..
tt's sickening..... =.=

===================================================================

*i told myself tt i'll start to work hard from this week onwards for my exam n mainly for
MYSELF
but i've been playing gunbound straight away when i reached home..
hell moo moo...
wad am i doing...
i need more self control... more n MUCH MORE~~!!!!!!!!!!! =/


BED TIME~~!!!!!

Learning........

learning to trust,
learning to let u have things in de way u want it to be,
learning to nt to think too much...
learning nt to be ur burden...
learning... n learning..

a fact known,
i'm nt as 懂事 as u are...
haiz.........

心
，
又
痛
了
一
下
。

somehow, it just hurts..........

HappY Day~

went to far east plaza to meet up with clover,
she's late, so i waited for her at the bus stop..
*whistle* she looked damn nice lo, in her outfit, haha, unlike me, still de same old tee n shorts..

haha, guess wad, Clover say i look very lady-liked lei~
haha, unexpected compliment =D wee~

we spend our whole afternoon at far east plaza walking, choosing, trying..
n OH HAHAHAH!!!!
we saw YUXUAN at far east plaza,
actually is he saw us, then he called my name, we turned n tata, saw yuxuan ~!!!!
ahhaha, so surprise to see him siah
haha, so we chatted a while, n went our seperate ways again.
haha, eeeeeeeeee, yuxuan so wad de lei, he walked off without saying bye~ =.=
haha, but nvm, was quite happy with the lame conversation.. =D

clover bought herself n her friend a necklace each, n me being itchy handed, bought one too.. >.< forgive me dear i too itchy hand le..
we also bought something for our friend too..
n i bought myself a long demin pants, wee, $32, quite ok i think..
hahaha...

overall, enjoy de day lots,
yoz thx yao jing for today wor~
had a lot fun laughing n shopping with u~
ahhaa.. next time go tgt again~ =D

hmm, tml, Kbox session with Qiao fei,
n oh no, ahaha.. i dunno much songs so wad shall i sing tml..
hmm hmm...



it's a gd idea to keep myself occupied with events, so i wont have de time for those -ve tots..
i miss ya now..
do u feel de same?? =)

disappointments...
Quality Vs quantity..

just hope tt de same things will nt repeat itself too frequent, i'm very sure i'll get pissed soon..

tt's all...

Ur Craze My Worry

hmm, yup, de title's just sum everything up~ =D

it's 6.50am, should be packing n prepairing to to sch,
but i dun wanna be early for LMS as it's kinda boring, so..
i'm trying to waste my time here...

hahaha...

can i request for a housework-free life??
it's really killing me to do all those housework after a tiring day..
though i always try to find excuse to escape from it, though i always grumbled over it,
but i still went to do them...

i'm TIRED and ANNOYED!!!!
STOP CALLING ME TO DO THIS N TT,
TOTALLY SICK OF IT ~~!!!!!
STOP CONSTANTLY NAGGING AT MY EARS!!!!!
STOP IT~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i'll be so grateful if u would just leave me alone....
tiredness---> bad mood ----> outburst~( burst at here onli.. =.=)
haiz..
我累了~
i wanna slp..
n i shall go slp now AFTER I FINISH MY DISH WASHING~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tml Life Management Skills at 8-10 am.. =.=lll

=(

when studying isn't about just the textbks and the notes, it involves u to continue with the researching and finding outs, this just turns me off.
i'm lazy to do all these, but it seems like without all these further studies, i'm nt gg to do well for my modules. tt's discouraging..

hmm, Mr Lee, my macroecon tutor is abit weird i think..
he kept trying to get me, clover n sinli's attention at the end of the lesson.
y cant he just let us do our gals talk when u aren't teaching anything..
n y u so interested in our conversation??
haha.. he's a funny guy..
funny, but i can sense that he cares about us, so tt's a gd thing to know aint it. =D




the atmosphere's getting more n more unpredictable, just like the weather.
i dun like all those guessings, just be straight forward n say things out??
haha..

moodles day..

n damn it, i finally had de time to take nap, but i just cant fall asleep..
hope i can slp for tonight..
tt's all...


i wanna slim down..

nth much abt today,
Blaw test's over, n i'm sure i'm nt gg to score for it even though it's EASY!!!!!
yup it's easy, but since i didnt study much abt it, so think at most a pass??
haiya, wadever la, test onli, as long as i pass my final exam can le..

hmm...
dunno wad to blog siah~
u say blog abt my tots n so on de, but tt'll be too persona i think..
so shall nt reveal too much here..
hahaha..


not in de blogging mood now..
think tt's all le..


friday friday~ i'm looking forward to it~ =D

oh well, today's kinda bad day for me i think..
went sch, during BMGT tutorial, mens cramp till so serious tt i ran to toilet to vomit..
cant concentrate nor catch anything in the tutorial.. sianz..
de yaos ah~
so gd hor..
keep on saying i pregnant.. =.=lll
but tt's funny~
n thx thx yongjia n xin li, for pei me go toilet~ =D
haha..

after bmgt end, decided to skip law lecture n go home..
but cant really walk, walk a while den wanna vomit again..
n tata, went to blk 56's toilet n vomit again.. =.=
ren yao~ thx oh~
thx for pei me go Toilet n pei me go take cab,
woohoo~ thx ren yao~ muackz~ =D

went to de nearest clinic, waited for near 2 hrs went in for less than 10 min,
n tata..
$18 gone..
anyway.. de doc gave me med, and he told me if de serious cramping persist for 3-4 months, if yes, den must go see specialist, coz tt means somethings' wrong..

haiz.. pls pls..
i'm a healthy woman..
=D

tml have blaw test, BCA quiz..
blaw ans presentation..
sianz..
i'm damn tired now.. =.=lll

ARG!!!! stupid IAC reflection!!!
i totally had nothing to say abt it, except how i detest it!! but i aint tt crazy to write this in the reflection when de tutor's going to grade it right~
haiz..
i look at the qns given, n try to dig hard into my brain for an ans..
i've been doing on it for half an hour n haven even finish 1 qn.. =.=
hell mooo moo..
sianz..

haiz...

time= 7.27am,
going to skip my BMGT lecture again.. ~ wee.. so meaning my lesson will onli starts at
1pm...
den why am i here???!!! u should know y.. hehe.. =D

haha... =D

anyway, some updates abt ytd..
ytd POA e-learning, so no lessons for tt day..
did my online poa quiz, n scored 28/40,
didnt do very well, i expect better, esp when i can refer to my notes when doing...
but nvm, it's still a pass.. =D

went to yeo chu kang n waited for him..
his lesson ended late, so i waited for him at de train platform...
got bored, so called jess for directions on how to get to NYP..
haha..
but soon after i hang up, he msged me tt his lesson ended n he's coming.... wooho..
he's in formal wear lei~~ so so so _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .. MUAHAHAH...
proceed to PS, dine at Secret Receipe, walk around for a while n went home..=D



dumb me, i onli realised that i haven do my IAC Spies R Us reflection last night, when we are supposed to submit it by ytd 5pm.. die die..
heck la, later den do.. since i got so much time now.. =D

My girl's English really so cham?

Oh well, I did the editing to the recent posts. Nothing else was looked into. Promise. =)

Shes sleeping now, I guess so. They say cute people have cuter faces when they sleep. Now I wonder how she'll look? Hmmmm~~ I wonder... saliva dripping? Snoring away like she didn't sleep for 3 days? Cute

A thousand apologies for those tears shed, could blame me instead of the over-reactive tear glands. =) Hahax. Nevertheless, its over now already, not entirely my fault nor entirely yours. This is a 2 people thing alright.

P.S.
Bystanders that are looking should only look. Save your comments to yourselves, if its bad. =)

Though a bit playful sometimes, still she makes a wonderful lady to me. (Beauty in the eyes of the beholder) =X

Boy shes gonna stomp over to my place tomorrow and take me by the neck like a chicken and exclaim "WHO SAID U COULD POST ON MY BLOG HUH!?" Haaa! I would be half asleep by then.

Alright on to the serious stuff...

Thank you GY for remembering this word I taught you. "Compromise"
Many couples forget this when they get into conflicts and stuff...
Pride gets in their way, hinders their line of thinking.
They fail to remember what lays underneath that layer of pride...
Love.
Lets communicate more alright? So I'll get to know you even better.
So you can listen to more sweet stuff right? Haha, ok i was kidding on that part.

*Don't kill me when u read this* *I love u*

i'm nt so emotional le..
i'm feeling better le..
calming down le..

now i'm waiting..
regardless what's de ans..
i'll just take n accept it..
yup..

n tt's all...

=D

i think i'm making things worse now..

明明很爱,却一直在伤害，
Wad am i doing now??
Will saying sorry help??
Will u read this???
Will u still be there???

i'm startin to detest myself..

when the hurt is done, a scar is left behind.
things can be forgiven, but cant be forgotten.

i thought i could get over it,
i thought maybe we could still be like yesterday,
but it turned out to be a no, especially not when i was alone.


i hate being a cry baby, but somehow i'm still one..
blame de tear glands for being over reactive..
pain.. tt's wad i'm feeling now..


i just hope this is just another pms mood swing....

went sch in the morning 11++ to do BMGT project.
meet sin li and yong jia..
discuss n type out wads nt done yet..
finish all at around 4pm..

den we went to the library to print our purposal out,
we must be mad i think..
we took the lift tt's for de disabled.
n it's kinda malu n FUNNY n FUN!!!

this is wad happened:
1 )we press de left button and de door swung open, it's nv a gd idea to stand infront of the door..
2) went in n found out tt we dunno how to use it...
3) follow de instructions on the wall n press de "up" button and de door closes by itself n lift start to move SLOWLY up.. it's really slow!!!!!
4) lift stopped halfway, n we're like "huh!?" quite scared tt we'll be stucked inside..
5) ppl walked down from library to atrium cast us a weird look n i saw them giggling at us..
6) press de "up" button again n lift starts to go up again..
7) lift stops n we tot we reached.. but de door CANT be OPENED!!! >.<
8) yong jia panicked, sin li n i blurred away..
9) i try press de "up button again, lift moves up for less than 3cm, okay, so just now's becoz de
lift's nt aligned with the door..
10) finally de door swung open.. we left de lift n went into the library..

heng today's sat, n there's hardly anyone at the library there..
so onli few ppl saw me, sinli n yongjia embarrassing ourselves..
if it's on sch days..
i would really wanna find a hole n hide..
haha

tt's all ba..
=D

it's tears that really makes a relationship unforgettable and of cos.... on the other side of the coin lie the happy moments


i'm fine le..
n thnx "gimkeng kor" for these sentence..
meaningful aint it..

=D

i got him angry..
cried...
Quarreled...
things will never be the same again i think..


I cant turn back time
i dunno wad to do to save wads left..
n is there anything left??
loosing confident....
loosing u away...


心在 碎，泪在掉，
爱，还在吗?

it's monday again..
POA POA..
monday's all abt it..
hm, thx eh MeeChee..
for de Bubbletea..
haha..
she go buy it, n came all de way uphill to lecture hall 45 n pass it to me!!!!
aw~
so good of ya~
haha..
but she's a bit naughty n childish..
write on my pretty clean lecture notes, disturbing me when i copying down ans.. =.=
haha..
but tt's all NOTHING~~~!!!!
haha.. i love de Bbtea la~
haha...
n thx ah~ for pei-ing me .. hear me nag ah~ =D


had poa graded class assignment, didnt really know how to do,
but somehow, still can tikam tikam a bit..
open book one.. heng..

lesson ends at 3 plus gging 4, i went to PS to meet him..
supposingly to be meeting at 5.30pm, but i reached at 4.40pm..
dots..
kanna tio stop by a guy selling this voucher on dunno wadever brand de ice-cream, de one tt got wasabi flavour n is located at basement of bugis junction...
he ask me buy n blah blah.. telling me they got this grand draw, n a couple of buy 1 get 1 free ice cream coupon on de voucher.
felt a bit tempted to buy, but on the second tot, buying de voucher means spending, n i'm kinda broke le..
so i declined his kind offer..
n tt guy was like so damn shock lo..
"wad! u're de first tt say dun 1 de lei~"
n he repeats it for a few times everytime i told him i dun wanna buy..
but a gd thing abt him is he dun pester n he's still friendly when i reject his offer..
oh man, i like this kind of attitude.. =D

initially is meet him for dinner de, but in de end we went to watch harry potter~
be4 de show starts, we go food court n eat bopiah,
wa, de bopiah damn thick de..
but we are big mouth peeps, so still can one bite n stuff it in.. =P
haha..

hmm, harry potter n de order of Phoenix is really kinda disappointing,
didnt really enjoy de show,
de plots too fast..
everythings' just few seconds n blah, next event le..
both of us didnt enjoy it..
but de visual effects are really nt bad i think..
wonder what will de next movie be liked..


after de movie, we went home..
both of us were too tired to talk i think..
so silence..
but i really dun likee it lei..

ai.. nvm...

我明白强求不会给我什么，但却还是这么做了..
i've gt lots to tell ya, but de change in mood just ruins everything..
y is it always likedat 1.. =.=
yup tt's all.. rushing for tml's BMGT leadership ppt slides now..
i wana slp.. i'm tired..
last min decision, i'm ponning BMGT lecture which is less than 6 hrs away..
i'm tired...

hm..
shall update on sat..
didnt slp at Fri night,
onli went to slp at 5++ am on sat mornin, but didnt manage to fall asleep..
partly becoz i'm slping at his house, n some other reason too..
den "wake up" at 10.15am, bathed n cab to NP n manage to reach at 11am for BCA project.
Kor called n scolded me, =.=
haiz.. sianz..
20 missed calls, 5 msgs..
hmm, bad gy, onli inform parents tt i staying outside for de night but forgetting to mention tt i slp over at friend house..
den in de end mama go find some ppl in my old phone book n called..
n she say she find guys' no. n call..
n she called zhi hui.. -.-
den when i saw zhi hui's sms, i was so pai seh siah..
haha..
damn no face siah...
anyway reached NP meet clover n yongjia n jess first..
tze came later..
den lunch at canteen 1, n went to do BCA at de underpass..
cant concentrate n keep on doze off
i'm tired.. n worried too.. for might get scolding when i reach home..

A THOUSAND APOLOGY TO JESSICA DE YAO GUAI
i promised to go shop with u,
but in de end i eat up my words..
i'm sry sry n terrible sry for it..
forgive me ~ k..

hmm, reached home at around 5pm on sat,
Mum was staring at me when she saw me, but she said nth..
coz i was so so damn tired,
i didnt really look at her, n went to slp..
slpt for 5hr ++ n wake up at 10++pm at night,
dad's slp le, kor nt home..
mum didnt say much, just some naggings..
n she said i shameless, slp at others' house, n i should have come home early if i know i might miss de last bus.. bleh..

yup.. tt's roughly wad happen..
n oh ~
thx CLOVER FOR DE PRESENT..
I LOVE IT!!!! N I SERIOUSLY DO.. <3

hmm.. saw his papa just now..
he just came home nt long ago..
but wad de..
i had removed my contact lens, n i'm nt wearing my specs too.. so i cant really see him siah~
nono, is i cant see his face at all LA!!!!!!!
den i dun even know how am i suppose to look at him n smile n greet him!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!
so in de end is uncle greet me first.. OMG!!!!!!!!!
stupid gy~

gmm.. he's playing com just now.
com n me, com more impt.. =.=lll

now he went to bathe le...
hmm hmm...
i'm alone now..
haha


*somehow, i'm just so in love with him~ =D

just bathed~
2nd time bathing at some1's house, feels kinda weird..
haha..

i feel so fresh now~!!!
muahahah..
=D

stomach still nt feeling well ah...
when will de bloating go away~!!!! =(

LMS at 8-10am, totally a waste of my precious time siah~
dumb dumb...
den went home first, n go back to np at 2, meet tze n study for my macro..
quite sianz de, flip thru de notes n nth new, but i still manage to know something new everytime i flip thru.. =D

den xuemi, renyao n xin li came..
n study again... =.=

went for de test at 4++pm, hmm..
de test's still ok i think,
at least i know how to do,
so think will pass la..


after test, went to far east eat n shop..
dinner at ljs, but damn, eat le stomach protest le..
bloating..
gas ah gas.. pls come out ok~
bloating reminds me of PIPI~!!!!
i miss ya miss ya~H.P.O.o.P...
u know wad it means?? =D

bought 2 tops n a tube..
hoho..
all at a quite cheap price~!!!! =D

den go changi meet him,
he sending friend off..
n how i'm at his house..

hmm.. saw his mama, quite unfriendly i think..
ask some qns, "u gt tell ya parents u nt gg home?" .. =.=lll
n she kept on emphazing tt gals should stay out at night. blah
n even had wanted me to cab home..

hmm hmm..
wonder if it's a wrong decision made..
but since he dun mind, i ok with it ba....


=D

tml 11 @ sch for BCA..
jess ask if wanna go shop.. of coz YES la~
hahah.. shop shop shop.. =D

another tiring day!
but somehow today's more interesting i think, maybe coz i'm at a better mood? =D

had BCA tutorial in de morning, sit in the room 2 hrs doing nth constructive, msn, see blog n blah..
waste of time..


den had BLAW tutorial, did our project presentation.
n haha..
wad am i thinking i wonder..
de attitude BLaw tutor's just sitting 1 seat away from me,
n yet i still dare to use laptop to view video-webbies..
n hhaha... dumb, she saw it, came over n closed my laptop..
i rmb hearing her saying something * dun view unrelevant things in class*
hmm, come to think of it, the tutor quite ok ba, at least she didnt get too angry n make a fuss over it nor did she took away my lappie..
so i was heng i think..
but wad de hell i'm thinking i wonder..
trying to be funny huh, even though i know it's wrong n yet i still go n do it..
trying to act hero or somethin similar??
i must be out of mind...
dunno wad i thinking..
haha..

den BCA workshop at 3,
had to redo our PBL 2, sianz
rethink all de qns again, n was told by LKK (tutor) that our el a bit cannot make it.. =.=llll
oops.. we tried our best le...
haha.. wadever ..
at least today's BCA tutorial more enjoyable than normal..

hmm, i'm really too tired le..
slpt on bus 99 on the way home, n i overslpt, missed my stop, n had a tour on the bus...
haiz..
should have reached home by 7 de, in de end, i reached home at 730. half an hr wasted..

i still haven start on my macro revision..
die die..
haiz..

shall go eat my dinner now..
i'm famished!

tata


*u are the reason for the smiles* =D
just chiong finish my BMGT e-learning work..
hell, ppl spend half an hour can finish it, n dumbo me took 2 and half hr to complete it..
haiz.. slow worker..
now so hungry, haven eat my dinner yet..

hmm, went to lib to print notes with jessica just now~
n know wad, we used up altogether 34 sheets of paper~!!!!
damn waste siah, all print on one side onli..
haiz... jess even say she see liao heart pain ah~

den we went home lo..

i went to ntuc after alighting from de bus 99,
bought a couple of things, n landed myself in stupid situation.
i was hugging my laptop in one hand n carrying 2 heavy n bulky bags of groceries in the other and i dragged myself home..
should have buy less i think, or i could just ask my bro to buy some..
y let myself suffer eh..
haha.. dumbo me..

i'm tired
i'm nt in de mood to do anything now..
but i cant let myself throwing my truancy now..
got to get back to the study mode..
no matter how hard / how unwilling i am..
still have to do it..
haiz.. haiz..

my friend said something similar
: how can u stand it for nt meeting him for so long..

n i wonder how too..
friday.. i'm waiting for it's arrival.. =D

In sch now..
reach school at 1030am, and found out tt me n yong jia's meeting at 11am. dots..
haiz.. rmb wrong time..
n shuay me.. laptop got prob again.
so go all way to block 72 lvl 5 n found out tt the repair laptop de place shift to blk 5 lvl 4 le..=.=
damn.. n i dunno where it is lo!!!
so in de end go round asking for direction, n by the time i found de place it's alry 11am le.. =(
spend half an hour there calling de stupid help line... haiz.. sianz..

den later that go underpass with yong jia n meet de rest to do BLAW project..
i hate projects la.. sianz sianz.. nearly doze off half way..

hm.. i still haven do my BMGT e-learning work..
n it's due at 5pm today, which haha.. alrdy over le la~
heck la, no one did i think..



too many things not complete, too little time to finish all of them..
not much interest to do them also..
i'm sort of stop working hard le..
=.=lll

n i cant seem to catch up their pace..
lagging behind...

tt's all le ba..

=D

It's easy to hurt,
but not so easy to heal....

*regretted for saying those words*

when i started to see hopes, i ruined them with my own hands..

CriEd.
N i felt something changing.

cried for near an hour just now
reason for crying:
1) partly becoz of the korean drama i watching just now, "Bad Couple" watch till de sad parts n i cry..
2) i dunno y too..

let me recall, when was the last time i cry for so long??
probably at sec2 ba,
i seldom cry, nt counting those crying over movie n dramas.
but why this time so weird..

haiz..
dunno la..

but felt quite a relieve after de crying session..
cry so long my eyes pain siah~
haha..
hmm hmm..


he's sick, and a bit sore throat..
so today after my IS lessons, i went to watsons bought some throat sweets such as strepsils n blah then go to aljunied to pass them to him..
called his hp when i reached aljunied, but no one picks up the phone.
called for another 2 times, still, no ans.
hp's getting low batt, i started to panick, what to do now?? continue call or go home??
den i'm mad, i go call his house no.
called, his mama answered....
.
.
.
.

met him, go eat lunch,
saw his cousin, she hi to me, i hi back awkwardly,

he's de same, but i'm nt..
holy moo...
haiz..

tt's all le ba..

hmm, something's wrong with my internet connection again~
cant use at all,
but dunno y, now suddenly can use, but dunno how long it'll last..

hmm hmm, wake up at 815am,
den went to raffles place there de spinelle*duno spelling* to do de BMGT business management project, we managed to do quite some of it..
yong jia left at around 1++pm,
she gotta do her LMS project,
PROJECTS N PROJECTS, they're driving me nut!!!!

hmm, wanna go the Euro FunFair, which was at bishan, n today's de last day le.
but in the end cancelled le.. sad..
so went to take train lo..
saw Yi Yang when walking to raffles train station..
actually is he saw me n approach me, onli then i manage to see him.. =.=lll
oops, sorry..
i'm quite blind i think...
n i wasnt really looking when walking~
so very often, i would just walked pass ppl i know without me knowing it, coz i had no idea abt it!!!!
so pls pls, i'm nt dao-ing, but just quite blind de.. =.=

oh ya, coming back to yi yang,
was quite surprise to see him,
den talk abit, n he's going to suntac, but his kor told him to get off at raffles which is totally BULLSHIT la~!!!! MUAHAHHAHA,
blur guy he had a evil kor?? haha.. jk
can i say he gd / dumb??
say him gd la,
haha.. was sms-ing, but i didnt know he reply me even when with his gf,
n oops, his gf angry..
don do tt next time oh~
MUAHAHHA~ =P
sry eh.. but doubt he got read my blog, so eh~ nvm~
MUAHAHAH

ok~
tt should be all le ba..

tml gging out, so better do some work today~
hmm hmm...
movie movie movie~!!!
but which movie eh?

29/06/07 friday~


went to sch damned early for LMS,
fahila(leader) said meet earlier at 7.15am to do the props,
i onli managed to reached at 745am. =.=lll
sry..
but it turn out tt fahila's even later than me~ =.=lll
oh well,
i rushed out of home without eating anything for the project, but turn out nthing's done,
haha~ =.=
was damn hungry lo, so went to buy a chicken pie at cheers, but it turn out to be a cold potato+veggie pie.
dots, heck la, too hungry le so just eat..
den haha~
thx to tt stupid pie, i had this terrible stomachache when having my LMS lesson, n i had to go toilet to Lao Sai siah~
smelly smelly eh..

stayed back after LMS lesson n find a place at atrium to do my blaw E-tutorial quiz, coz home's internet got prob,
den discovered tt de work i did for B-management E-learning's gone, but i rmb clearly i got save it!!!!
haiz, had to redo again..

tok to yuxuan a little when he walked pass me at atrium..
he staying back for his LMS project i think..


haiz.. bad day siah~

i felt discouraged by things around me..

first is tt i got lots of things tt's need to rush n dueing soon le..
n i haven touch on them nor do i really know wad to do~
HELL! slack too much le..

next is tt..
how kool it is to be disappointed by wad u see n experienced..
i tried to see the goods in everything,
but it just seems that i'm being too naive,
maybe i should learn to face reality.
learn nt to onli see goods,
learn to protect myself...

how kool it is to know tt blah-blah-blah was this n tt gd in some1's eyes,
but wad i see n feel had a contrast on wad i heard..
yea, kool har..
i trying be gd, but wad i got back was disappointment,
super kooll...
hell shit la...


wanna do my work de, but now mood spoil le..
kool har kool har..
holly moo la~

haiz haiz...

i wanna be happy i wanna smile,
but i was too tired to do tt...


arg~!!!! haven touch my macro-econ at all..
tml getting back macro-econ paper i think..
die le..

chat with him for 1 hr ++ last night at 2++ am
dad caught me on de phone n got a bit of scolding from dad..
haiya, heck la.. him more important.. =P

heard him sing over de phone..
aw~ just love him so much~ <3
wahahaha...


went to causeway pt to meet him~
something's nt right with me today
quite quiet n weird de..
was just nt in de mood...
my moodswing again or?? arg~ dunno la..

ate tom yam ban mian at de foodcourt..
it's too spicy le.. so i barely touch it..
actually i got touch n eat, but it looked as if nt touched at all when i gave up eating ..
haha... so watever la..

walk in causeway point for a while then we get tired n go home..

he send me to Boon lay again~ =D yipee..

he said something which gave me a shock n shy...
oots..
shant say it out here..
MUAHAHAHAHHA

tml schling..
5 hrs of br8 tml, shld be using them to do projects..

LMS LMS, nt meeting no rehearsing, how to perform de play???
n do we need any props i wonder, n y do i keep on having this feeling tt de script was a bit out of point???

arg~!!!!!
shall nt think of it le..
will drive me mad de...

tt's all le ...

smile smile smile..

23/06/07
David called asking me if wanna go visit Loon at IMM,
he's part-timing there..
i agreed, den David came fetched me, n i ride onto his bike!!!!
wa, scary siah~
but it felt gd when u feel de wind rushing pass u..
it's scary but thrilling~

took this pic at IMM..
den me n David went to JP to develpo de photo, n print it onto white tees..
present for Loon's be-lated Bday~
Loon knew nth abt it~ MUAHAHHAHAH!!!!



24/06/07
meet Loon at Boon Lay MRT, den take to Queensway n wait for David..
oh my..
David had a fall ytd when riding his bike home..
n had left side of his body glide onto de floor, skin tear~
heard from david tt got a lot of blood on his bike~ >.<

really hope tt he had rest at home..
it must hurts like hell man..

we went to marina square,
went to de kiddy palace to see ah toh 1st~
(i last time work in value dollar, n she's my supervisor)
haven seen her for yrs, n she seems to be doing fine..
haha.. was quite surprise tt she still rmb me..


den later on, went to Kbox, sing sing sing..
david left half way to de toilet to change into de tee we made ytd..
haha..
den all 3 went to change into de tee... -.-lll
nice hor~ HOHO~

*from left,
Loon, me, David...
de 2 guys are available orh~ =D



sometimes i really feel fortunate,
i always manage to meet gd ppl,
those that really cares,
all thx to them, i'm able to live my days with a wide grin~
love all those friends around me,
n thx all, for making my life a wonderful one~


时间过得好快,
快得我来不及反应过来,
快得我好想回到过去,
回到那无忧无虑的日子,
那单纯的时光。

19 June 07

meet up with TzeHui, YongJia,Clover for BCA at 1pm at de clementi mac..

do till around 4pm..

accompany clover back to sch to buy her contacts..

den rushed to PS to meet him..

by de time i reached ps, it's alrdy 5.30pm..

oops..

sry i'm late again..

we ate mac, ate de burger, but didnt really touch de fries,

coz we're running late for de movie.. =.=

haha..

watched ocean thirteen, den tcc..

den go home..

normal routine..

haha..

but he send me till BOON LAY wor~

hoho.... hoho..

*simple n sweet*

20 June 07

went alice house..

saw kai, apple, yh..

play a bit of poker,

then sheery came with her bf~

hohoho..

thx alice, kai, apple n yh, for de Bday surprise for me n sheery.. =D

haha..

they tried to keep it from us, but i somehow manage to know it...

hoho..

make wish ( actually we didnt la, was laughing away )

blow de candles, but there's this Xtra candle which refused to extiguish, no matter how hard/times we tried..

haha..

cut de cake..

cake cake!!!!

n guess how we eat de cake??

dig into the cake with spoons n forks!!!!

haha.. unique hor~ ;D

left overs

ah~ kai kai eating de strawberry~ hoho

sheery n her bf left early,


den de maggie buffet...





kai kai cooked for me~ =D


but it turned soggy by de time i eat it..


so eat a bit..





den i cooked maggie mee for de rest.. haha..


eat eat n talk talk..


den go home..


thx again~


haha..


n thx thx for de star necklace.. love it lots..~





=D

another cake.. kor paid for this~ looks yummy~

oops.. ugly me ~ haha

wasn't really in de mood to blog now..


so tt's all le..

spend de whole day rotting..
tried doing my stupid BCA 3 times, den in de end give up n didnt save de work~
so meaning, must DO AGAIN!!!!!! HELL!!!!!!!

i know i got work to do..
all those tutorials n i better start to revise my work..
but i just dunno wher to start with..

so just lost.. dunno wad to do..
sit there n blank out~...

wanna call him today..
but mama at home, so a bit weird la, to tok to him under mama's presence..
haha..
so..

miss him miss him..

haiz..
i feel discourage..
i feel annoyed..
but these are all temporary de.~
=D

hmm,
went to watch Pirates with kai n alice ytd at 5pm..
n after watching, all of us think tt it's worth it!!!
haha..
but really a bit confusing la, haha..
cant really catch de story..
den later we go eat Long John, den they go home, it's aldy 9++pm..
n i go look for sinli to pass her her bra.. =P

meet her outside heeren, pass her her thingy, den we walk all de way back to PS to take bus..
thx gal, for ya chocolate~!!! yuMMY YummY lei..
den sinli accompany me to my bus stop n waited till my bus came..
so gd of her..
love ya~ <3 then today, went to meet qiao fei at 1230pm at Jurong east train station.. then we go eat food court at de Jurong Entertainment there de food court.. there's this dunno is for wad de pipe lying on de floor.. many had tripped or nearly tripped over it.. but i didnt!!! =) but den hor, when we're abt to left, i knocked down "caution floor wet" board on the floor!!!! =.=lll dots, n i saw de gals sitting at a table near us giggling at it!!!! =.= so malu.. haiz.. den we go Kbox n sing from 2-7 pm!!!! wa tt;s damn long.. n qiao fei sing till very nice.. n me very jia lat la..haha like crow likedat.. sing sing sing till i tired le.. n went home at 7 ..

hmm. time to do some self reflection.. i've been gging out everyday eversince de last thurs, when my common test ended..


thurs
go bugis after POA CT paper..


Fri
go botanic garden for HM outing..
den go Tze's house n slp over..


Sat
go sentosa siloso beach with tze n clover sinli they all..


Sun
go Vivo with him..


Mon
go sch do project..


Tues
go PS watch pirates with kai n alice


Wed(today)
go JE with qiao fei for Kboxing..
n thx qiao fei.. for de earring.. =D



hmm hmm..
wa so so OMG lo..
haha..
so tml shall stay home n rest, do house work.. pack room..

wake up in de morning at around 9am,
thx MC, for morning call me for abt 3 times?? or is it 5??
i cant rmb..
but hoho, all i know is tt i didnt pick it up until de last call at 8.5+am..

get prepared n go out at 10am, take bus to Np, meet Tim at Lib, den after tt Fahila came..
went to 3rd floor n found seats at de corner..
talk abt IS projects..
sianz ah..
IS, i think it's really damn useless..
n may came when it's 11++,
wei kwang didnt come.. he got training till 1, n by de time he reach, we alrdy left..

me , tim, may n fahila den went to de dunno wadever place to eat lunch..
there got lots of restaurants, but nt de high class type la..
look more like foodcourt likedat..
eat some malay food, n TIM PAYS DE BILL!!!
thx man~ =D
a total of $21 dollars..
still ok la hor, for 4 ppl, food n drink..

den go take bus, TIM accompany take 174,
he can actually take bus 52, which's at another bus stop, but he lazy i think..
so in de end take 174 with me n he took it till Boon Lay Interchange, den he need to find his way back to HouGang there..
whoah~ so far..

talk talk with Tim..
ahah..
quite fun chatting with him,
his life's totally diff. from mine de..
mainly -ve things..
but he's a gd person..
yup..
=D

hmm, will i be going out tml??
Pirates pirates.. haven watch yet lei..

others' 2 week br8k seems so packed but mine, like so slack likedat..
such a great diff siah..
feel a bit useless..

u're swimming with ur friend now..
wish i was there... =D

wake up ytd feeling a bit sick sick de..
but i feek much better when it's around 2pm++
mum was constantly nagging at me to do house work,
got irritated, say her back..
but in de end still got do la,
mop de floor, wash de bath room..
n all these took me over an hour to finish..
was sweating like after exercising..

so bathe n went harbour front to meet him at 6pm
well, it's suppose to be 5 de..
but haha..
we push push push till 6..=.=
didnt do much,
eat at de vivo's foodrepublic,
i bought ThunderTea rice for both of us,
n oops, he was like =.=lll all veges, no meat.. =.=lll
sry..
haha...
i had forget tt he's a CARNIVOROUS!!!
oops.. sry sry..
den we order siew mai n de scalet dumpling too..
=D yummy..
after tt go walk walk..
den go sit down at a place tt's facing de sea..
haha..
tok tok.. den walk walk..
n go take train at around 10pm.


耍了一分任性,
得到了一分包容,
多了一分爱~

love him <3 =D
"u're part of my life" =D

看着以往的种种, 忽然有种想从头来过的狂想.
如果当初做了别的决定,今天的我又是如何的?
会更开心吗?

there's no point looking back and sigh at what's already passed,
look forward n be positive,
there's always a better day tml~
=D

haven been blogging for this wk,
so just a rough post on wad happens..

Mon, 4 June 07,
had Macro CT, although it's all true/false n multiple choice qns, but i did badly for it, screwed it up, lots of mistakes make.. dumb..

Wed, 6 June 07
Blaw CT, i simply loathe de short ans qns, i memo so hard yet i forget de ans at de spot,
n also, i cant express my ans into words, n tata, there goes my marks..
but i feel so relieve n so no burden after Blaw CT~!!! =D

Thurs, 7 June 07
Last day of my June CT, POA, overall, de paper's nt hard, as long as u had studied, passing shouldn't be a prob~
make some silly mistakes, forget to include some calculations, didnt read de qns well, n waste lots of time on some uselss things..
haha, but still ok la..
after POA, went to bugis with Clover, Mag, Tze, SinLi, Jessica, Xue Mi n YongJia..
did a little shopping at bugis street, bought 2 tees, nt bad i think..
den ate steam boat..
=D
overall, enjoyable..

Fri, 8 June 07
went to Botanic Garden with some Harmonians, 11 out of 40 turned up, including me..
botanic garden turn out to be more fun than i tot it would be,
love the picnic, cam whoreing, chatting n exploring..
we also went into de Orchid garden,
whoah, for adult ticket is $5/ person..
but for student, is $1/person..
such a gr8 diff..
see lots of orchids, n my my, alice even pluck a branch of yellow orchid, with 3 sub-branches of yellow orchids.. even thou i was de one to suggest plucking orchids.. but i mean 1 orchid flower n nt a branch of it.. -.-lll
funny alice.. funny but fun~ =D


den meet with jessica at dobby ghaut n headed to bishan, meet clover, sinli, huikuoon, xue mi n mag den went to stay over at Tze's house..
my 1st time slping over at others house, haha.
quite fun de, chat, youtubing, played some games too..

didnt really slp, but slpt at de computer table for a few hrs, 2-3 hrs i think..
neck hurts n i still feel tired..
den went to sentosa today..
saw bennette, haha.. shocked~! didnt went up to say hi, for there's no need for it, n he wif gf also..
haha

go siloso beach
went half down into water..
kanna splashed by friendz, tze they all, coz i lose in de game of zhong ji mi ma..

den later on go bathe,
den go foodcourt eat abit..

thx thx sinli, for lending me ur things..
ur tt pants looks so nice lei..
too bad i dun dare to wear too short, i feels so comfee in it!!! =D

gging harbour front again tml with him, i told him i wanna go de.. =D
long time no see him, miss him so so so.. much..

chat with him last night for abt 2 hrs..
had actually tot of wad to say be4 he calls..
but, haha, when he really calls, i cant recall a single thing..
did we talk alot?
still ok i think..
but really enjoy de chat with him.. =D
den i go slp, it's alrdy 3++am.. =D

纵然有时会怀疑有时会伤心， 但只要你的一个简单肯定，
所有疑虑就会消失，就觉得无比开心。=D
haha.. =D


spend de whole afternoon looking thru my macro econ txtbk,
n i onli manage to study 2 chpts..
damn..
progress so slow, how to take CT on mon???
n there's still POA n BLAW on 6 n 7th june.. oops, i dunno when is which test.. die..


chat a bit with pris on phone this afternoon, talk talk talk ...
she ask me wad i wanna have for Bday~
hoho..
den also talk abt things around us n blah de..
haven seen her since de last HM outing..
miss my punchbag lots.. =P
haha.. so sry lei, last time always use my violence on her, n she still can tolerate it..
pro n poor gal... =D

hoho...

random post..
shall go back to study le..
bb

haiz, took nap this afternoon at 2pm,
wanna wake up at 3.30pm to study for CT de,
but i too tired den go press away my alarm!!!!
so in de end, wale up at 6.15pm, den go watch "so u think u can dance"
wa, just simply love this show, n PRO siah, all those dancers..

haha, suddenly had this urge to go take some dancing as CCA,
but haha..
dun think i'll persevere de,
so uh huh..

did nth constructive today,
studied nth, wasted lots of precious time..
n here i am, blogging..
haiz...

Common Test, can i pass all my core modules??
doubt so.....

tt's all le ba..

HEADACHE!!!!
mind's exploding soon le ba..=(
haiz..
dun care le ..

go rest le.. =( =(

BUT WAIT!!!!
I CANT GO REST!!!
go slp now den tonight sure SI DOU CANT SLP!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAD DE!!!!!!!!

starting to think too much n -ve again..

went to Chinatown ytd, meet up with Jessica, tze, clover, xue mi, magd, den we head to Kster.. =D
had a lot of fun ytd, all those singings, dancings =D

den after tt went to have dessert, den go mac eat fries..
den went home..
hoho.. nt in de mood to elaborate..
eat too much heaty food, ended up having a slight sore throat.

wake up at 6am this morning, use com for a while n rush out at 7.15am for IS class..
took train to clementi to take bus to sch, n yoohoo..
saw yoyo on de bus so i just go n sit beside her. =D
she's friendly.. last time got talk to me.. so tt's y i dare go sit with her..
den talk talk a bit..
den walk to class tgt..

Think my Life Management Skills tutor dislikes me lots. i wasnt attentive in her class, i was using my lappy, n also, sometimes distracting others too.. =X
n discover the way she look at me, scary.. can see lots of dislike in her eyes..
oots..

got moody half way thru LMS, den just sort of remain quiet..
after lms, walk out sch with may, den went to take bus home..
tt's all


DUMB DUMB de stupid thumbdrive,,
dunno y, maybe tio virus or watsoever, i cant delete away some files in it..
i delte le they'll reappear one!!!!
DAMN it..
n sry to yuxuan lo,
i insert my thumbdrive into his lappy, den wa!!! got virus siah, haiz..


DUMB GY!!!
for June, i got 2 weeks of holiday, and another 3-4 days of no sch due to CT,
and i dumb dumb go buy Conssesion pass for month of june!
ZHU la!!!
wa~ wasted de 52 bucks !!!!!!!
hates it..



fed up fed up with lots of things..
my mind's in a mess now,
cant think properly..
so shall ends le ba..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<