Tired N Sianz

just back from work an hour ago

now tired, leg sour eh.. lots of latic acid accumulate due to de 6-hours of standing..

but de thought of money makes it all worth while..

at most tml morning i go rub rub massage lo..

haha...

hmm...

think i planing to look for another part-time job eh..

i still have time for it.. lots of time

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though o'lvl had ended for about 2 weeks le..
n it's quite pointless to worry now..
but i'm still quite worry abt it..
think i'll fail O'lvl ba..
tt's bad man~

*pray pray ehz..*


nth much to crap eh..

so end le..

How Cold-Blooded Can I be > : (

well, this afternoon i went to the nearest ntuc round my house to buy something..

i took one U-mag at the magazine corner,

then there came this uncle, from a optical shop near the ntuc which i'd visited his shop be4. "Banged", he had his right feet knocked hard onto de sharp corner of the magazine stand corner, and he tripped and fell hard to the ground, and "tuck", his forehead knocked hard onto the solid ground.

at that point of time, my hands were all occupied with stuffs, and i dunno y i'm so foolish for not taking a basket with me. I stood infront of him, with both of my hands packed, watch him fall n knocked his head onto the ground, but did not went up to lend any helping hands, nor did i went up to help him up.

I watched him rubbing his right feet in pain, n trying very hard to get up. Though i had had the urge to rush over to help him, but i did not do so. I stood there, watching coldly, watching de uncle getting up onto his feet and walk off, telling to de ntuc staffs that "i'm fine, i just tripped and fall only." ( in chinese ) i also saw this guy, with both of his hands free of things, took a glance and walked past de uncle on the ground as if nothing had happened.

after this incident, i felt so ashame of myself!

how could i be so cold-blooded to the uncle. How could i Just watch him fall and not went up to help him! that was so scary of me! How could i do that!

i should have put down my things and went up straight away to help him up, or at least asked if he's ok, and not stand there n watch as if i'm watching a show.

that's so shameful!
what's de point of taking so much education, when i didn't even help those in needs.
where did all those moral teachings gone to?

de world has changed, ppl cares mainly for their own benefits, which person really truly cares for those unfortunates, those elderlies?

i talked about this to my kor when i reach home.

he told me that he'd saw many elderlies died because of falls.
they were so vulnerable, so weak!
n it's really sad to know all these.
it's also sad to know that i can be so cold-blooded, and the world was so too. =(

treat those needy ones with care,
show more concern to de elderlies around u, they were really very pitiful..... =(


+VioLenCe+ = (

Me Back!!!

haha.. once again, i'm back le

something wrong with my com previously,

well.. it was still ok when my brother used it de night before it spoil

then de next day when i try to get connect to the internet, it CAN'T!!!

n it remain unable to connect to internet more than one week le!!!

ah!!! it's so hard to survive without com eh,,

ahaha,... then today, my brother call to singnet and blah blah blah..

after the calls, he concluded that it's de singnet cut off my com's internet connection due to a sum of $200++ overdue pays.. All thnx to my kor's stupid friend,

my kor so nice help u to open an account for handphone under his name,

n this stupid person had this $200++ bill, n he did not pay it!

then in the end, the bill kanna transfer to my kor's account!

n tata, my internet kanna cut off!

haiz haiz...

but still, it's my kor's business, i shalln't made too much comment on it..

n the com's ok!! now.. =D

haha... yay!!

+ VioLenCe+

haven been updating for 1 month 4days le..

O level.. busy chioing, but it seems that all those last min work doesnt pay.

i must really admit these:

1) i think slow

2) i write slow

3) i'm incapable of getting good grades.

4) i'm not understanding nor answering de questions

and all this had resulted in me not being able to finish almost all of my papers..

haiz...


so who's to blame???

of coz, it's none other than MYSELF!!!

looks like i'm going to fail my O le..

retake?? doubt my parents let me to do so..

so most prob i will go work factory n get low pays.. =(

sorry for my rudeness to you for i wanst in good mood

and thx for trying to comfort me n cheering me up

also, thnx for constantly telling me tt i wun fail..

but how is it possible to not to fail when i didnt even complete 3/4 of de paper??

how was i going to get gd grades with all those weakly answered questions??

eh i knew that u're trying to cheer me up, encouraging me.

so, still, thnx for all your words. =)




white lies are signs of kindness, but doesnt suits me =)

stairs to success collapsed, and path to future darkens infront of me

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am i happy?? No

am i sad?? No

am i disappointed?? Yes



so tt's all for today..

jia you all...


_________yuan___________

no point crying now, no point regretting now, for it's all OVER~