same song..
different time,
feels the same as before....

Sorry That I Loved You




For all of the time that I tried for your smile
曾經我總是試著討妳歡心
For making you think that I was worth the while
好讓妳認為我就是真命天子
So you love love love love would be mine
那麼我就能贏得妳的愛
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
送妳鮮花牽妳的手
That no one was there to take a stand
沒有人阻止我們
But the love love love made us blind
但是愛情終究讓我們盲目
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
對不起我傷害了妳
Sorry that I fell through
對不起我搞砸了
Sorry I was falling in love with you
對不起我愛上了妳
I'm sorry that it came true
很抱歉它發生了
but sorry doesn't turn back time
但道歉也不能讓時光倒流
For all that I have done to you
所有我對妳做的事
I wish that I could make it right
我希望可以補償
So sorry that I loved you
對不起我曾經那樣愛妳
Sorry that I needed you
對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳
Sorry that I held you tight
對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳
And I'm so sorry for.....
而且我還要道歉的是
Making you love me and saying goodbye
讓妳愛上我卻必須說再見
For being the one that taught you how to cry
還有我居然教會了妳什麼是哭泣
It was love love love and it passed us by
愛情真的來過 但它又悄悄溜走
For giving you everything that you dreamed
很抱歉我曾給妳夢想的一切
For taking it back when I fled the scene
卻又在我逃避後全部拿走
Sorry love, for wasting your time
抱歉 我的愛 因為我浪費了妳的青春
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
對不起我傷害了妳
Sorry that I fell through
對不起我搞砸了
Sorry I was falling in love with you
對不起我愛上了妳
I'm sorry that it came true
很抱歉它發生了
but sorry doesn't turn back time
但道歉也不能讓時光倒流
For all that I have done to you
所有我對妳做的事
I wish that I could make it right
我希望可以補償
So sorry that I loved you
對不起我曾經那樣愛妳
Sorry that I needed you
對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳
Sorry that I held you tight
對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳
An apology now after all of this time
經過了這麼久
Won't make any difference tonight
一句抱歉並不能改變什麼
But I'm hoping I'm sorry will open your mind
但我真心希望這句抱歉能打開妳的心房
To love love love love in your life
好讓妳在未來還能繼續去愛

there are things that's not within control.
what do you do with it?


we cant change our surroundings,
shldn't try too hard to change others..

the least we can do, is to change ourselves.
but is it really how it's to be...

問

作詞：李宗盛 作曲：李宗盛

誰讓你心動 誰讓你心痛 誰會讓你偶爾想要擁他在懷中
誰又在乎你的夢 誰說你的心思他會懂 誰為你感動

如果女人 總是等到夜深 無悔付出青春 他就會對你真
是否女人 永遠不要多問 她最好永遠天真 為她所愛的人

誰讓你心動 誰讓你心痛 誰會讓你偶爾想要擁他在懷中
誰又在乎你的夢 誰說你的心思他會懂 誰為你感動
只是女人 容易一往情深 總是為情所困 終於越陷越深
可是女人 愛是她的靈魂 她可以奉獻一生 為她所愛的人

只是女人 容易一往情深 總是為情所困 終於越陷越深
可是女人 愛是她的靈魂 她可以奉獻一生 為她所愛的人
可是女人 愛是她的靈魂 她可以奉獻一生 為她所愛的人

time to move on..


wish i made the right choices....




yawn~

FREAK OUT!


will you talk to a stranger when on bus?

i wont, and neither do i want people to talk to me..


today, took bus home, and slept throughout most of the journey.

when i woke up, and still was not very aware of my surroundings,
this 40-50+ uncle sitting 1 seat away from me suddenly talk to me!

initially thought tt maybe he's en-quiring something from me,
turn out he's chatting to me..
telling me tt he had a gf at thailand,
the gal cheated him blah blah..
and he speaks so loud!!!!


he asked for my name, no., and even say he want to befriend me~!
HOLY moo...

totally freak me out!


dislike this bus ride to MAX!!!

contract signed,

but i'm on 3 months probation~!!!!!!!
AWWW~~~
my upcoming TIOMAN trip might have to forfeited!!!!!!!!! =(

sad


and de walking distance is SO DAMN FAR~!!!!!!
about 20 MINS!!!!!!!!! DIE

i wish i can FLY!!!!!!!!!!!



nights

a few hours,
a not tt satisfying dinner,
quality laughs at Mac @ PS..

it's enough to lighten the stress around..



if only i don have to worry about when can i reach home,
if only i don have work,
if only i don have to worry for my future,

if only life is easy as ABC...


if only....

maybe it's time to face reality..


chocolates, biscuits, my 2nd amulet.
i'm happy for the night.. =D


TCC before 25th JULY,
ANYONE??

life's unpredictable,it's full with ups and downs..


but why do i always encounter those unlucky ones..!!???


firstly,
i was hit by a tree branch when exiting the carpark at wheellock.
OUCH!!
it hit my shoulder.
Things happened so fast and sudden that I do not know how to handle it.
but it was really painful.
well, i'm pretty lucky though unlucky,
if the branch had landed on my head,
i'd be seen in tomorrow's papers.

just hope that this wont happen to me anymore....


next,
a flying cockroach air-crashed me when i'm engrossed in my latest One Piece release.
Gotten a fright when felt something hit my legs.
took a closer look at what it was,
and to my HORROR!,
saw a cockroach crawling away from me.

hence, took a un-used slipper,
followed the cockroach as it crawls.
found a perfect timing and killed it!

DAMN U COCKROACH!!!


i'm doing pest control! LOL..


enough of those -ve things,
here's something that i'd love to share:

TCC having promotions!!
1 for 1 main course till 25 July!!!
and the food's so YUMMY,
the ambience is warm and cosy~
I'M SIMPLY in LOVE with IT!!!

TCC's always my favourite place~!!!
except that it may be a bit costly for me now..
=D

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


night.

lost,
stuck...

what do i really want?


felt UnderPaid..
cheap labour
DAMN!

took leave today,
so tt i can meet up with my dear Qiao Fei,
so she can have her night and weekend for her precious parents.. =)
and also to collect my Diploma cert from Ngee Ann..


it's been a couple of months since we last met.
i cant remember exactly when and which month it is,
but it's definitely not a short period of time..

many things had happened to both of us,
though we don't have frequent contacts,
but it still feels the same, like the secondary school days whenever we meet.
i'm really grateful and relief for this..
coz it'll be so sad to know that you had drifted away from friends due to time and distance.


i was late, as usual,
even though i took the effort and money to cab down to town,
and yet i met another traffic light fault AGAIN!!!!
the 2nd time in 1 week's time!!
it's really too MUCH!! and irritating..

anw, met up with her, had lunch,
chit chat, share our thoughts, went to shop a little..
it felt really good to hear from her,
to know more about her,
to walk around with her..
i simply enjoy it so much! =D
let's meet up soon k...


after tt,
met up with dear Sin Li...
we haven't meet for 2 weeks,
and de last time we met was like dinner,
we dont really have the time to talk and catch up...
hence we chat, slack at mos burger,
walk around a little,
joke and share our views on different issues in life...

just simple meet ups with my friends makes me happy..
i don't know how to describe my feelings,
i get so excited about it, even when i'm on my bus home..
to the extent tt i wanted to shout to the world tt,
" I LOVE U GALS!!!!!!!! "

hahaha..
maybe people will find it a bit exaggerating ...
tt's how i really felt..




no more poly lifes, it's getting harder to meet up with my ex-everyday-meet friends..
i wish we could turn back time and slack, eat, study like how we used to be..
this applies to all my gals~!!!!!!!!
I MISS U ALL....


as well grow up,
reality sets in..
we have to work for our livings,
hence lesser time for our friends and families.

sometimes we get so preoccupied with our things that we neglected them.
yet they are still there,
always for you, when u needs them..

quality VS quantity.
i don't have a lot friends,
i have a group of GOOD friends
and i'm contented with it. =D

"friends are like stars,
not always seen,
but always there..."

they shine and brighten up my life.... =D

ignorance is bliss..


many things are best left untouched, unknown.





DAMN

22ND BDAY


one year older than ytd,
and i had fun with my friends today.
though nt all are present,
i still enjoyed the time, accompaniment of them....


dinner,
oyster,
minds cafe,
games,
cakes,
laughters..

sin li mag clover made a mini-scrape book for me..
hahaha..
so pinkish,
yet i love it lots~!!!!!!!!!!
they did it in few hrs time only,
but really like the end product..
too bad i have no camera to take pic of it..



i do not ask for more..
am contented with the present...

please make my wish come true.... <3




*though i do not say,
but you're of importance to me.....

should......

shouldn't............

life's hard..

words are deceiving...

no longer believes in them..

too afraid to trust anymore.........

let it go, let it pass...

it's hard to build up,

but it takes just as little to destroy....

i shld just shut up....

selfish,
petty,
arragont,
full of himself.

bias.




had too much....

Records......... Judgements

past is something that you cant change..

what's happened, should just let it be..

who do not wish to have a glorious past?

who dont commit mistakes..

who wants to fall hard and felt the pain..

past should not be used as a tool to judge

because it doesn't involves you.

tt's why you give judgements so easily..

will you say the same if it's you?

because it's NOT you....

verge of tearing.

super irritated by what i heard few seconds ago..

**what's the point of digging up the transaction history and question me on how he spend his money.

afterall, it's HIS hard earn money.

you dont have a say in how he spend..

**how will u treat those that weren't good to you?

the same way,

or treat them better..?

what's the point of comparing to others?

do you have what it takes to compare?

aren't u ashamed when doing tt?

treat others the way you wished to be treated..

why people just cant get this..

dont you think u valued money TOO MUCH,

to the extent tt makes u selfish~?

and yet now , u wanted others to contribute to u..

ask urself..

what have u give?

felt so fucked up now..

but just dunno how to vent it out..

blogging make me feel even more pek cek.

since i cant find the right words/sentences to say them out..

haiz....

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

what's wrong with MAY!!!!!!!!!!

lost my HP, Wallet n all..

not feeling well in office..

do shredding also nearly get myself SHREDDED as well

want to buy stamp for those machines de stamp also get STUCKED!!!

reach home can also step onto n killed a lizard!!!!!!!!!

nothing's right!!!!

ARG!

IRRITATED

I LOST MY HANDPHONE, WALLET YTD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHH

damn it!

but who can i blame except for myself...

i'd been careless again,

left my things in the toilet again..

haiz...

damn sianz..

please don raise ur voice,

please don yell..

i know u dunno how to express,

but yelling will only make things worse...

my hand bleed just now...

blood just constantly rush out,

refusing to stop...

lucky it's just a small wound,

seems like a needle prick,

so it wasnt tt bad..

i think...

i really brought bad luck to you..

=(

it's always your loved ones tt did the worst damage..

*sick

running nose...

Roaming's so expensive!!!

almost half of my bill comes from ROAMING!

=X

萧敬腾-疼爱
作词:阿信(五月天)
作曲:阿信(五月天)
专辑:同名专辑

我沈默不代表我不痛
我不痛眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受安静忍受
安静看你走

你说我很适合当朋友
你说我总是会听你说
你说别太难过保持联络
有空的时候

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得快乐自由
这疼痛并不算什麽

想挽留却为什麽点头
我不懂连我都不懂我
如果说的太少爱的太多
有谁能够懂

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得快乐自由
这疼痛并不算什麽

千言万语拥挤我的宇宙
让我震耳欲聋喔喔
有多少爱就有多少
沈默的疼痛

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
等到你转身后眼泪也不敢流
只怕你偶然还会回过头

把疼爱都给你把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得快乐自由
这疼痛并不算什麽

think you know me well?

think twice,

think thrice..

you might nt even know 10% of me..

human are too complex to understand...

guessing games aren't fun...

is tt hatred?

i dunno..

all i know is hurt is incurred, and they wont go off..

u did things tt i hate..

you choose to left me when i needed ur presence.

you think abt wads gd for you,

maybe u have tot for me as well.

but what u think is good for me might nt be what i wanted..

if i don need it, then it's no longer good/useful to me..

you lied to me.

you choose to protect ur privacy, hiding things from me.

you break up with me over sms again, even when you know i hate things this way, even when i keep telling you do it face to face..

too many empty words, it's all words no actions..

where are the apologies tt i wanted?

you said u will,

but u nv do so.. NOT EVEN ONCE...

i gave up everything on you..

was thinking if we can still be friends, but doubt so

u also wont want it as well..

right?

too much disappointments..

i can tolerate others..

but not lies, not constant hurts..

it's too tiring to continue....

if u want leave, then make it a clear cut..

which is wad's really gg to happen now..

from today onwards.....

.......

i dunno why u still chats with me on msn,

why still call me hon, dear and so on,

but tt wont happen anymore..

it's over...

family and love, i don have any left..

simple wish,

yet the hardest to accomplish..

Drink. Drank. Drunk?

went drinking last night,

upper circular road, kent ridge park,

3 tequila shots, half jug volka redbull, few mouths of heaven hill dry grin with coke.

high, numb, releasing control of my body, and don want to think abt anything..=)

but i wasn't knocked off nor vomit!

weeeeee, felt a sense of accomplishment!

coz i drank more than i expected =D

irritated by the most tiniest things on earth...

unstable...

I want a man like this..

=(

没一件事顺心，

没一件顺眼，

烦！

nothing's going right....

don disturb me..

i'll BITE!

LOL

YOU

tried hard not to think, to forget

but you're constantly in my mind....

ironically,

there's no much recollection/memories of you as well..

*weird fact

how do you feel when your beloved ones left you to another world.

sadness, i think...

but why do i not feel anything much,

even when my dearest grandma left me

maybe it's due to the lack of contact?

that results feelings for her faded off long ago?

or is it because feeling sad also cant changed anything.?

my grandfather just left me...

there aren't any so call closeness between us.

so neither do i feel?

again and again, people are leaving.

the same goes for you

pain, reminds me that i'm still alive.....

习惯就好。。

everything will be fine......

想做的事太多了，

想要的太多了。。

没做好的太多了，

没法回头了。。。

太多时间浪费了，

太少时间来实现。。

不曾为谁停留过，

不曾为谁怜悯。。。

time is precious..

running out of time..

the clock's ticking away.....

need a job..

genting 3rd-5th may

when will you expect?

when will you not?

when will you persevere?

when will you not?

when will you try?

when will you give up?

when will you feel hope?

when will you not?

complex, complicated, contradicting...

what lies ahead of you?

大热天里，
下起了细细绵绵的太阳雨。

像是在为谁 伤心的哭泣


你的泪，我不懂得安慰
只能在角落，静静地守候

也许，能稍微的扶你一把
也许，能轻轻为你遮挡


静静地。。。

I need to sleep. But was not in de mood for it. Sian. Fyp presentation next week n things are not done yet. Haiz
tired

i'm tired, physically and mentally.

too many tasks, too little time. insufficient energy


coz i know how it felt like to try to please.
hence i don want tt to happen on you.

it's hard to draw a line,
hence i'm in a dilemma.


am..

learning to be independent.
learning to not to expect from anyone.
learning to be selfish.
learning to survive.
learning to smile.
learning to be sociable.
learning to be easy-going.
learning to concentrate.
learning to not to trust too much.
learning to doubt.
learning to think for others.
learning to go with the flow.
learning to be considerate.
learning to trust.



but i'm loosing myself in the learning processs..

is it worthwhile?


dilemma

....tell the tears to stop....