having the urge to pour out to someone, anyone

the longer i kept it in me, the faster i will go insane.

wad had went wrong?

it's not that i had no 1 to talk to,
but just that i'm fearing the secondary consequences

or am i worrying too much again..




did i do it right?

a friend told me last night tt i haven been updating for sometime,
so here i am,to update my long forgotton blog. =)

well, 1 week of sch had passed,
basically it's mainly lectures, and BCOM, n SPANISH lesson.

lecture was boring as usual, so i was too tired n skipped my fri's lecture,
den i noticed tt it's one of thoseCANNOT-SKIP lecture( AAA ) as it's something like POA/FMGT,
once u missed it, it's hard to catch up le.
so kinda stupid of me! ARG

haiz..

nvm, let's talk about spanish.
spanish is fun, n stressful too.
all those tongue-rolling pronouciations, verbs proverbs, guys n gals' usage thingy is driving me mad.
but it's really interesting to learn a foreign language.
and my spanish tutor, Maestro (teacher) Esteban, at
he appeared to be shy, but once he starts the lesson,
it's kinda fun and interesting as he's trying his best to make us say out the words.
it'll be weird and uncomfortable if i'm doing it alone, but nt when every1's doing it. =))

and one more thing, my BCOM tutor n my Spanish tutor are actually roommates man!!!
whoah,tt wad like so coincident la!

n know how we discover this?
they actually had the same penalty for handphone ringing in class la, dance to the ringtone man~!!!

hahaha...
n oh ya, my bcom tutor was a real smart guy man~!!!!
ahhahaha...
shall talk abt it next time..hohohoho

shall go do my tutorials le..
haven touched on them et..
faint~!!!


OH OH!!! before i end...

something bad's happening to me now~!!!!!!!!!!
my appetite had increased like no one's business la!!!!

normally i'll onli eat like around less than 5-6 spoons of rice for dinner,( less than 1 scoop)
but today, i ate 2 FULL BIG BOWLS of RICE LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! + SOUP
though i finished it in 1 hr++ time,
but the amt i ate was like 8-10 times more than wad i eat normally la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN STUPID MAN!!!!!!!!!!!

wad am i doing,
think by the time u see me again,
i'll become a fat piggy GY le la.....
sad man..


6 more days to go..
i'm looking forward to it, but at the same time,
i'm kinda worried abt it..
hmm hmm..

Science Centre Trip

inconsistant weather,
non-long-lasting heels
fluctuating emotions....


suddenly realised that i've had been staying in the current comfort zone of mine.
realised that i had missed out a lot of tings going around me.
yearn for a change, but was frightened to make the move.

maybe i'm just a self centred ass, that didnt cares abt others other than myself?


lots of self reflections to be done
avoiding wasnt the solution.
emo


不看不想不理假装不懂
心挣扎

walle
shopping
self-select class
work
sick
sianz.

This sat was totally packed!!!
have to work in de morning,
den gg to meet pris in de afternoon
den later gg east coast in evening...
=.=


i'm tired....

feeling kinda stupid.
hahaha..

tot i was online all the while, but in the end, i forget to change my MSN status to online,
so ended up, appearing offline for an hr plus, n emo over some dumb things
hahahaa



anyway, work work today.
didnt catch enough slp last night,
so was feeling weak n sick again
suddenly i got kang chiong n need to finish a couple of things today.
somehow i'm too slow i guess..
hm hmm..
dun feel gd abt it..

n felt like vomiting on bus home, DAMN man.


reminder to myself:
"Look Where u are Walking" hahaha..

finished watching Hana Yori Dango season 1 n 2

oh oh, damn nice..
n DOMYOUJI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE u~
ahahahaha


simply love it..

ahhaha..


when..
expectation = disappointment

it simply make me sad..

hence, i'm nt gg to repeat tt again..
i hope i can do tt..

JIA YOU GY~ =D

RAINING

hatesitwhenigetsemotional

Thurs 04/09/08

-Lunch break with JH
-near knock down by car again!!
-slacking off at work
-watching hana yori dango <3


Fri 05/09/08

-work,
-nt feeling well,
-dozing off at work
-weak stomach
-running errands to toilet every hr
-finished hana yori dango season 1

WA!!!!!!!!!!!!
DOMYOUJI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVEEEEEEEE
=D

oops, cant wear my contacts tml le.. -.-

hahahaha

nitez nitez..
i wanna watch walle walle..

DISASTEROUS DAY!!!

- bad hair day, curled hair

- my office desktop tio virus for no reason -.-

- nearly knock down by car

- knock onto files n photocopy-ing machine in de office

- rained when on de way home

-squeeze on bus

- fell off from bus seat n land on butts when the bus jerks violently, bus is packed!

sianz..

haiz..
tml need to wake early,
go suntec rock auditorium for event, doing registration
so better go slp le

nitez..

the phone rang when i was just abt to call.. =D

hmm..

i think..





i must be


.
.
.
MAD
.
.
.

when my thoughts went wild

went to suki sushi with qiao fei on sat.
hahaha, ate till we almost vomit out..

chit-chatted,
shopped a bit.

work on sunday,
reached home tired
chat-ted a while on phone,
slpt at 2.30
wake up 630am.
rush to work.
doze-ing off here n there

sianz..

3 saturdays occupied. =)
movie?
science centre + snow city?
shopping +bbq?
hahahaha..
mad..
damn tired..

getting emo soon..
hohohohoho


sensitive, insensitive,
haiz

hm, work work, monday was mainly abt answering calls, calling clients n blah.
wahaha, had a hard time trying to figure out wad they are saying, n i talk talk till no voice man! scary....

then after work, met up with Hk at far east, shopped for cardign n i bought 1 blouse.. <3

well, ahahha. heels' are torturous man, hahaha.. had a hard time with my wedges..

ahhahaha...

so today, wore palms to work,
slacking day
cab till gombak drive to collect something n cab back to SBF.
den in de aftn, went to the Singapore Conference hall there, to do registration for a talk.
overall, slackin time..
n i get to know a malay lady, who's 28, but look like 22, n was married n had 2 kids man..
unbelievable man...

hahaha...

well, tt's all ba.
v tired now..

hope tml will be a gd day as well.. =)

somehow i always feel like dozing off when sitting infront of the desktop in de office.. =X


tata

hm, i wasn't suppose to go out today de.
but hahaha
in the end was out to watch movie with JH.

went to watch "death race" at vivo @ GV MAX

wa damn shiok..

de cinema's so big, n even though i stretched my legs to the max, i also cant touch de front row's seat..
ahahaha
so u can see how big it is le..

anway, tt show nt bad, worth watchin.
lots of excitment n thrilling moments, well, some gruesome scenes as well..
hahahaha..
but love to see the race <3

hahaha..

enjoyed myself today.

working tml, formal wear.. hmm.. sianz

ahhahaha.

gotta slp..

nitez~

pls dun anyhow give me hopes pls..

and Whooo~
exam's are officially over for me..
=)

same old behaviour patterns repeating itself..
sianz
hahaha


did quite badly for my papers,

well, wadever, since it's over then let it be ba..

haha

but was quite unlucky today,
halfway during my CMA paper, i'm having this sudden pain in the stomach n needed toilet urgently,
but i just REN~ till de exam ends
sianz...


Kbox-ed finally
near 6+hrs of kbox session <3

too tired for anything now..
*yawnz*

exams exams exams.
well it had finally arrived.

hmm will be having my human resource paper in 11 hrs time..
last min mugging n chiong-ing again.
hahaha..
when can i change tt dumb habit HUh..

haiz...

shall go back to my theories le..
haiz haiz..

jia you oh every1..

=)

read some friends' blog and get quite emo.

when the friendship's fading away..
drifting apart...

haiz......

Monday

Pics-Fish n Co

Friday - Sat

took it during our free time..

thursday

be4 movie pics

a little update

7/08/08 thurs

watched The mummy with mag, clover, n justis's dance class ppl.
studied at shaw house 5th floor with mag,
n went to meet clover n jian hui for dinner,
den meet uo with rest ppl, n movie time.. =)
quite like the show, esp de skeleton army, so cute~ <3

jian hui drive mag, clover n me home,
chatted abit on the car.
haha,
it feels good to be driven around. ahhaha

fri-sun (8-10/08/08)
working at expo, starhub, high sch musical on ice,
for 3 days
expo hall 2 is v far from de train station.. hahaha

-slack
-talk
-sing
-studied
-took a lot pics

monday ( 11/08/08 )
dinner with kenny,
i was late again.. =X

-dine at fish n co,
-yummy
-my dish was super big.
-huge drink.
-movie-money no enough
-missed my last train
-trained to paya lebah
-cab home.

n OMG, he had spent over 90 bucks today!!!!!!!
30 for my cab fare
den food n drinks
faint..

but thx wor.. =)
if u happen to see this..

tues (12/08/08)
went sch meet mag, consult cma teacher..
she's fun, n interesting..
hahaha..

wed(13/08/08)
meet mag in sch,
i'm late for an hr.. -.-lll
studied studied..
talk talk..
ahhahahaa

exam coming le.. stressed

Finally ECD's down,
and well, our tutor like the video we presented.
n i'm so happy abt it, coz i did it all by myself.. =)
felt de effort being paid off


was supposed to meet 10am with my grp to rehearse, n it's suggested by me.
but i overslpt n didnt turn up for it.
reason?
i was editing the video till 430am last night n couldnt wake up the next morning.
Mag said tt in the eyes of others, ppl might have a bad impression n will feel tt it's my fault.
well in fact it's really my fault.
but i had to complete the video so... i also dunno wad to say

i dunno.
feel as if i'm trying to rebute for myself.
maybe i cant even bother abt it?
well no idea n i'm really nt in the mood for it.

sometimes explanations are unnecessary, others may nt accept or listen.
so just let it be?
this attitude of mine will eventually get me into trouble one day...
i need to change..

i need to change my habit of being late n laziness..

after ECD, stayed back n took some photos,
we trying to pic-out the
-7 dwaft story.
-the split personality princess/witch
-the shortie prince, shorter than princess by ALOT >.<

lol..

alright back to my HRM tutorial.