YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

i finally managed to secure 2 HR Appointments today!!!!!!!!

so happy..

but then, one of them is because the person's interested and keen on the topics, so she called to the company.

the other will be like, i'm sort of cheating her, tt's how i feel la.
but then, this is a business world, we make use of beautiful words to polish up our services, intentionally exclude unfavourable terms and conditions just to get to the core purpose.

sad huh, but i guess tt's how things are ba..


well well,
just when i tot i had a great day,
something spoils it all..

was pissed pissed very pissed.

if i'm really in the wrong, i dont mind getting scoldings, for, I"M WRONG!

but i nv like to be scolded or shouted at when i have not done anything wrong yet, it's all their assumptions that i'll do this and tt, but i haven and did not intend to do so.
FUCK OFF THEY IDIOTS!!!!!!

so full of themselves, and yet always thought they're right..
damn ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HAD ENOUGH OF THIS STUPID RUBBISH!!!

PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll be going for my appointment tomorrow~!!!!!!!!! weeeeee
MY appointment!!!!! =D

wild wild wet with kaiting, pris, deb and weiyi=D

2 of them are late! but it's okay.. hahaha

-went into www, get changed! OMG, there's so many Indians on that day! trying not to ve racist, but seeing too many of them did frighten me, but mainly is family likett.

- went to do play those kiddy slides, i slipped and fall on my butts and knocked my head! OUCH!

- played the ular-ulah for a couple of times, guess this is how they spelled it, quite fun! but somehow we always missed the camera.. =.=

-then also had this facility, where we need to carry the BIG-2 seater float up the stairs, like walked 3 floors, and den slide down the u-shaped slide! it's THRILLING!!!!! but was lazy to play it again, for the FLOAT"S WAY TO HEAVY LA!!!!!!! me and kaiting had a hard time carrying it!

-the tsunami wave pool was quite okay, but i nearly drowned there. The incident took place at the 1.8m pool there, was trying to climb up the float, but sliped on the float and plunged down into water. tried to kick up, but I CONFESS, I'm A WEAK SWIMMER, more accurately is I CANT SWIM. so though i did kick up the water to the surface, but i cant float.. -.-
so in the end, was saved by lifeguard! and everyone's eyes were on me!!!!!! embarrassed!

- played 1 slide, where it's like a tube likett.. so when u were sliding, u're been engulfed by total darkness. it's kinda scary, for u cant even see ur fingers when in the slide.
then a lady infront of us get STUCKED in it.. poor thing, she must have felt damn scared!


after WWW, dine with them + meixuan.
updating each other on our lives....
i enjoy these gatherings~!!!!!!!!!


ahhaha

here's a little update on what happened.





attachment is getting worse by days, as i'm doing the same thing, calling and calling everyday.

i never like callings, esp calling to request them to let my company hold seminars.

so somehow, it makes us on the downside, as we are asking a favour from others.



so i get quite depressed over attachment, and it gets worse when all the other interns, except me, had managed to secure HR appointments.
Though my immediate advisor did not say anything about it, but I still felt the pressure building up. I am really afraid that this will affect my evaluation grades though it's just a pass or fail. I do not wish to fail my attachment!

Well, what can I say, it's something that I don't enjoy doing, and also, not good at.

However, I knew it well that no matter how much I dislike it, how much I complain and nag about it, things won't change.

The world won't change because of me, I know it well.
So, I got to change and adjust myself to fit into my surroundings.

Trying hard to now, but can't help but to complain every now and then.
Venting out of my emotions is necessary, if not, I might get overly depressed.

21/03/2009,Sat

As usual, Sat was the day for my sales part time job.

How do we define good friends?

I guess I ain't one.

For I couldn't be there for you when you needed me most. I felt kinda sad when realising this.

You even expressively stated that you wanted to see me, but I just can't abandon my work and run to you.

I'm sorry, friend.

I wish I could, throw away all the obligations that I had to fulfil, or find some excuses or reasons to tell my colleagues to let me off early, so I can go look for you.

But I didn't.

Maybe I'm just too selfish, like some others said.

But I did try my best to make myself available to you, through sms.

I even tried to send you video message, picture message, video call you, but sadly, my pathetic phone failed me.

So, I keep on find excuses to use my handphone: toilets, going into storeroom, refilling my water bottle.

For these, I feel that I had tried my very best.

Though you said the sms-es had helped you alot, and thanked me for that. It did lessen the guilt I had, but still, I felt bad towards you.

Similar incidents had happened before, that's why it bugs me so deep.

I can't guarantee that this won't happen again, but I will try to make myself the most available..

once again, i felt apologetic to you, and you.

And YOU-s, thank you for being there for me when I'm down.

I appreciate the efforts, time and attentions of yours.

Though I may not have said it, but I really mean it.

Thanks.

currently I'm quite obsessed with this song,
somehow the lyrics reminds me of something..

meaningful but yet sad...

放了爱


你指向远方爱情很晴朗

笑问不如今后就我们俩

怕泪会反光钻进你胸膛

但那不是感动是泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上以为是天堂

羽翼折起在你身边静静躺

却只能用目光空中翱翔

还得乔装安份靠在你肩膀





放了爱 为了爱 这不是我

该怎麼生活 放了爱





你说你喜欢我笑得开朗

你越温柔我越不想撒谎

我已办不到你想要的那样

客气地配合你我感觉更勉强


别人的幸福何必要模仿

心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁

加满自由我要无重量飞翔

就算以分离收场





放了爱 为了爱 这不是我

该怎麼生活放了爱

会明白有种拥有 叫作放手


我的心为爱流离失所

紧握最后回家的线索

等到寻获真正的我

证明我决定没有错


放了爱 为了爱 这不是我 想要的生活

放了爱 你会明白 有种拥有 叫作放手

放了爱 我放了爱

Loves:

The little ironing session!!!

simple and sweet

work,
chalet,
night out,
bath,
slp,


changed,
vivo,
thai express,
walk around,
indigestion,
trained,
home.


when you saw the changes, though you said it's something good, however, your tone and expressions disagree with it.

changes, something that never stop its steps, happenning to each and everyone in the every seconds of life.

many things happened, i guess i was no longer the same as whom you had known.

what awaits infront, is something which i do not know and do not want to know.


you pointed out something which i wasn't aware of...


*sticky sticky*

2nd week of my attachment, and i really do not like it.
it's not so related to what i studied, not something tt interests me.


today, after my lunch, had this terrible cramp, and vomited twice in the mini-toilet cubicle.
couldn't stand it so cab to a polyclinic and went home after obtaining the MC.

the waits at polyclinic were not that long le, think i spend like 1 hr 15 mins there. yep





because you are someone special + important, therefore, that may explain the expectations.
when perceptions do not meet the expectations, disatisfaction occurs.

if this is a test, you failed terrible.

i needed a lot of attention then, a hug, the cares and concerns and also your prescence.

cares and concerns yes i may have it, but the rest, none.

maybe you have your reasons, maybe i'm just too spoilt, i dont know.

All i see now is i'm not so happy with it.

high fluctuations in mood now....



Blame the PMS, blame the hormones...

I'll be fine soon

despite that,

i'm still crazily in love with you

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

sat, 7/03/2009

work,
clubbed,
danced,
laughed,
irritated,
drank,
dizzy,
startled,
chatted,
discussed,
split,
homed.


clubbing was alright, loved the accompaniment of friends, though half way was a little pissed but it's inevitable i guess.
tt's normal for places like clubs, so yep..

drank a little, few sips only, but felt the giddyness came and go.
a little chat session outside de club, was tired then..

a little break from the hectic schedules... =)

moments ago, everything's fine

moments later, everything changes....






i dunno how to react to it....





tell me what shall i do....








i'm sad


-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
maybe, i'm not gd enough for u...

Extracted from some random blogs:

"how u know someone is the right one for u"


I personally feel that you know its the right one

when everyday is such a happy day
even fights/unhappy days seem so sweet
you can't get your mind off that person
you close your eyes you see him/her
you open your eyes you see him/her
you save up, and plan to go out with him/her
you burn down your entire forest for him/her
you're so proud of him/her, you want everyone to know
you want to hold his/her hands and dance under the stars
you plan surprises and everything he/she says is cute and silly
his/her presence makes unhappiness/weariness go away
you are willing to suffer, to make him/her happier
you love him/her the same
even when his/her hair is like shit
and even when he/she got pimples all over his/her face

everywhere u go, you think of that person
everything u do, you think of that person
everything u eat, you think of that person
every breath u take, you think of that person
every sms that comes, you wish its that person
you worry for him/her
you wanna protect him/her
you get jealous of him/her
you wanna spend your last cent on/with him/her
you dream of a married life with him/her
having kids, getting old together, holding hands in heaven

When that person leaves you
he/she scars you so bad
you lose your sanity, dignity and ability to lead a normal life
It hurts worse than any physical pain could give
The poison eats you relentlessly
and there is NO antidote
You lost meaning in life
and realises that you've finally loved somebody
more than you loved yourself
Good Game!

That person is the One, the Right One
This person is extremely hard to find
May be once in a lifetime
Lacking any of the points above
does not qualify him/her

HOWEVER HOWEVER HOWEVER
I must state that:
1. this person is the Right One for you
2. you may not be the Right One for him/her
3. remember that Life/Fate is always cruel

Those who have met the one will know
what the hell I'm talking about
I hope this answer the question for most of you.
May you all find happiness..


Meaningful and true. Sends me into deep thinking....

Nothing much/special happennings going on.

All i did these few days were sleep eat shit, n looking at my pile of notes

yep yep, exams are coming, first paper on the coming sat. =(

so hmm....
shall off to my notes..


Plans after exam:

1. K session
2. Attachment


HELL MAN, I SAW THIS CENTIPETE IN MY BASIN JUST NOW!!!!!!!
EEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK!!

Felt kinda moody 2-3 days ago.
For i felt like i'm going to loose a friend soon.
I knew it well that we are no longer as close as before,
but still, hates tt feeling..

hmm...

shall not think abt it anymore.
tt's wad reality is about i guess
nothing much i can do?

as 1 gets older, he/she's more afraid to lose..?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Sometimes I was quite amazed by what shit comes out from me.
they are so unliked me.

wonder if i really meant it, but i seriously dun know, or maybe dun wanna know?
irresponsible speaker
LOL..


random post, CNY eat n slp at home.
hopefuly i wont gain weight cause of this. =)

28th Jan 2009, someone's having a test tml.
all the best..
n rmb to drink the essence.. =D

*

tata

back from my consecutive 3 days of work.

first time working 3 consecutive in ISETAN, somehow that creates some confusions in the dates =X

CNY's approaching, people are rushing to buy new clothes etc, many sales gg on, n isetan's so PACKED with moving human beings!!!

Tired eyes + Tired mind + a worn out body = Restless GY

rude + ignorant customers = pissed GY

LOL..

time seems to move so slowly when people dreaded it..
so haix


anyway, someone came during the night, with his friend.
though he just accompanied friend to collect shirts, but still it manage to cheers me up.=)

some small minor things that tends to be neglected can really makes a great diff =)

anyway, a brief intro was done with i'm working,
but it feels so weird as i dont know how to react to it, same goes for his friend ba =/

so when we met later, I asked his name again LOL..
was thinking of doing a handshake as well,
but it may seems to be too weird n formal ba
so in de end didnt do it..

LOL




alright, time for some serious work..
they're piling up to such a hill tt i dunno wher to start from..
Hmmm....

my stomach's playing games with me for consecutive 3 days le.
hm, let's see who will surrender first

2 outcomes:

1) stomach gives up n stop giving me butterflies and tummy aches and multiple toilet errands. =)

2) I surrender and go see doctor. =(

yep..

when everything's in a mess

3rd- 4th jan-
work as usual
watch late night movie " Bed Time Stories"
stupid n hilarious show,
but really entertaining.

99th day

1 year 4 months
a picture can stirs all the feelings within me
letting go?
easy?
time heals?

are those smiles and care real?


i shldn't be thinking of all these

*woots*
haven been blogging for exactly 1 month! hoho nice1?

anyway, for the whole dec, all i can say is busy
busy with CT, after-CT-events

went to crash jessica's chalet on the 16-17 dec,
and due to my mixing up of dates n places, i didnt go for the HM chalet.
so.. hmm...

23 Dec- meet up with deb, jas, pris, marina square, YESMAN, suntec crystal jade

24-25 Dec christmas - picnic in car at labrador park, walk around, car ride around. =)

25 dec Christmas- orchard, cineleisure, xinwang hk cafe, orchard road phototaking, balcony =)

31 dec -1st jan new yr eve- fireworks + midnight kbox session with mag n yq =)


i dunno wad to blog le.
being unable to organise things is creating so many troubles for me when coming to blogging..
so yup, tt's all.. lol

Have decided to do resolutions for this yr.
well, we did this in sec sch, n i was nv serious in it AT ALL..
shall get serious for this yr, yr2008

1) Save $$
set a limitted amt tt can be spent per month, if overspent, den die die my business. shall be
harsh on myself i think, i'm too anyhow le lei

2) Lose weight
gain quite a few Kilograms of weight since de start of poly sch life. All my so xinku losed
weight had came back le, n my butts, thighs n stomach are getting bigger than ever. Gotta
control my appetite, eat lesser. I DUN WANNA REALLY BECOME A BALL like wad C2Y
says..

3) Work hard for my academic
had been more n more slack as days goes by. It's time to sit down and pull up my socks le i
think. My parents thrown in so much $$ to let me study, i dun wanna just get to back some
Cs, Bs, or worse, D or fails. So i hope to get all As for my academic. but tt seems so impossible,
so 4As out of 6 modules.

4) Have $2000 savings in my bank.

5) To stay in contact with all my dear friends.
this is like so hard n impossible for me to do it man. i seldom contacts ppl for no reason. haiz.
but i shall try my best i suppose. i dun wanna lose my friends. they mean too much to me. I
cant survive without them!

One had to beg

One was offered

WAD THE F**K

the hatred only grows

沿海公路的出口

Ella：
用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

Hebe：
倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

Selina：
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

Hebe：
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手
怎么走
Ella：
倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

Selina：
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

Hebe：
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手
怎么走

Selina：
我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

合：
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手

saw these on the taiwan actress 伊能靜's blog
it's taken from a book"昨日誕生悲傷戀情"
below is a quote from the book.
kinda like it..
hope i get the chance to lay my hands on this bk..
hohohoho



男人說:不必特說喜歡，也應該知道吧!
男人總是這麼說，但是沒辦法，女就是愛聽。因為一聽到(我喜歡你)，這句話，就好像有抓住一點幸福在手裡的感覺。



女人並不是因為很閑才跟你碰面
而是因為想見你才去見面

hoho

one shld be contented with wad he/she has

love and treasure wad u have now

dont complain

be grateful

it's not as bad as u tot

accept it love it if not change it

complains wont work

be optimistic

whinning wont turn back time

smile

laugh

jokes

cries

tears

angers

jealousy

attention

i'm

just a mere human

te quiero

maybe i'm just a selfish-spoiled-brat..

Blah Blah Blah...

little bit of disappointments here and there.

somehow i'm kinda tired

when i bo chap~

the champain grape incident

i ate up all

he ask

stunned

maybe tt's who i am

hell moo moooo

having the urge to pour out to someone, anyone

the longer i kept it in me, the faster i will go insane.

wad had went wrong?

it's not that i had no 1 to talk to,
but just that i'm fearing the secondary consequences

or am i worrying too much again..




did i do it right?

a friend told me last night tt i haven been updating for sometime,
so here i am,to update my long forgotton blog. =)

well, 1 week of sch had passed,
basically it's mainly lectures, and BCOM, n SPANISH lesson.

lecture was boring as usual, so i was too tired n skipped my fri's lecture,
den i noticed tt it's one of thoseCANNOT-SKIP lecture( AAA ) as it's something like POA/FMGT,
once u missed it, it's hard to catch up le.
so kinda stupid of me! ARG

haiz..

nvm, let's talk about spanish.
spanish is fun, n stressful too.
all those tongue-rolling pronouciations, verbs proverbs, guys n gals' usage thingy is driving me mad.
but it's really interesting to learn a foreign language.
and my spanish tutor, Maestro (teacher) Esteban, at
he appeared to be shy, but once he starts the lesson,
it's kinda fun and interesting as he's trying his best to make us say out the words.
it'll be weird and uncomfortable if i'm doing it alone, but nt when every1's doing it. =))

and one more thing, my BCOM tutor n my Spanish tutor are actually roommates man!!!
whoah,tt wad like so coincident la!

n know how we discover this?
they actually had the same penalty for handphone ringing in class la, dance to the ringtone man~!!!

hahaha...
n oh ya, my bcom tutor was a real smart guy man~!!!!
ahhahaha...
shall talk abt it next time..hohohoho

shall go do my tutorials le..
haven touched on them et..
faint~!!!


OH OH!!! before i end...

something bad's happening to me now~!!!!!!!!!!
my appetite had increased like no one's business la!!!!

normally i'll onli eat like around less than 5-6 spoons of rice for dinner,( less than 1 scoop)
but today, i ate 2 FULL BIG BOWLS of RICE LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! + SOUP
though i finished it in 1 hr++ time,
but the amt i ate was like 8-10 times more than wad i eat normally la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN STUPID MAN!!!!!!!!!!!

wad am i doing,
think by the time u see me again,
i'll become a fat piggy GY le la.....
sad man..


6 more days to go..
i'm looking forward to it, but at the same time,
i'm kinda worried abt it..
hmm hmm..

Science Centre Trip

inconsistant weather,
non-long-lasting heels
fluctuating emotions....


suddenly realised that i've had been staying in the current comfort zone of mine.
realised that i had missed out a lot of tings going around me.
yearn for a change, but was frightened to make the move.

maybe i'm just a self centred ass, that didnt cares abt others other than myself?


lots of self reflections to be done
avoiding wasnt the solution.
emo


不看不想不理假装不懂
心挣扎

walle
shopping
self-select class
work
sick
sianz.

This sat was totally packed!!!
have to work in de morning,
den gg to meet pris in de afternoon
den later gg east coast in evening...
=.=


i'm tired....

feeling kinda stupid.
hahaha..

tot i was online all the while, but in the end, i forget to change my MSN status to online,
so ended up, appearing offline for an hr plus, n emo over some dumb things
hahahaa



anyway, work work today.
didnt catch enough slp last night,
so was feeling weak n sick again
suddenly i got kang chiong n need to finish a couple of things today.
somehow i'm too slow i guess..
hm hmm..
dun feel gd abt it..

n felt like vomiting on bus home, DAMN man.


reminder to myself:
"Look Where u are Walking" hahaha..

finished watching Hana Yori Dango season 1 n 2

oh oh, damn nice..
n DOMYOUJI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE u~
ahahahaha


simply love it..

ahhaha..


when..
expectation = disappointment

it simply make me sad..

hence, i'm nt gg to repeat tt again..
i hope i can do tt..

JIA YOU GY~ =D

RAINING

hatesitwhenigetsemotional

Thurs 04/09/08

-Lunch break with JH
-near knock down by car again!!
-slacking off at work
-watching hana yori dango <3


Fri 05/09/08

-work,
-nt feeling well,
-dozing off at work
-weak stomach
-running errands to toilet every hr
-finished hana yori dango season 1

WA!!!!!!!!!!!!
DOMYOUJI~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVEEEEEEEE
=D

oops, cant wear my contacts tml le.. -.-

hahahaha

nitez nitez..
i wanna watch walle walle..

DISASTEROUS DAY!!!

- bad hair day, curled hair

- my office desktop tio virus for no reason -.-

- nearly knock down by car

- knock onto files n photocopy-ing machine in de office

- rained when on de way home

-squeeze on bus

- fell off from bus seat n land on butts when the bus jerks violently, bus is packed!

sianz..

haiz..
tml need to wake early,
go suntec rock auditorium for event, doing registration
so better go slp le

nitez..

the phone rang when i was just abt to call.. =D

hmm..

i think..





i must be


.
.
.
MAD
.
.
.

when my thoughts went wild

went to suki sushi with qiao fei on sat.
hahaha, ate till we almost vomit out..

chit-chatted,
shopped a bit.

work on sunday,
reached home tired
chat-ted a while on phone,
slpt at 2.30
wake up 630am.
rush to work.
doze-ing off here n there

sianz..

3 saturdays occupied. =)
movie?
science centre + snow city?
shopping +bbq?
hahahaha..
mad..
damn tired..

getting emo soon..
hohohohoho


sensitive, insensitive,
haiz

hm, work work, monday was mainly abt answering calls, calling clients n blah.
wahaha, had a hard time trying to figure out wad they are saying, n i talk talk till no voice man! scary....

then after work, met up with Hk at far east, shopped for cardign n i bought 1 blouse.. <3

well, ahahha. heels' are torturous man, hahaha.. had a hard time with my wedges..

ahhahaha...

so today, wore palms to work,
slacking day
cab till gombak drive to collect something n cab back to SBF.
den in de aftn, went to the Singapore Conference hall there, to do registration for a talk.
overall, slackin time..
n i get to know a malay lady, who's 28, but look like 22, n was married n had 2 kids man..
unbelievable man...

hahaha...

well, tt's all ba.
v tired now..

hope tml will be a gd day as well.. =)

somehow i always feel like dozing off when sitting infront of the desktop in de office.. =X


tata

hm, i wasn't suppose to go out today de.
but hahaha
in the end was out to watch movie with JH.

went to watch "death race" at vivo @ GV MAX

wa damn shiok..

de cinema's so big, n even though i stretched my legs to the max, i also cant touch de front row's seat..
ahahaha
so u can see how big it is le..

anway, tt show nt bad, worth watchin.
lots of excitment n thrilling moments, well, some gruesome scenes as well..
hahahaha..
but love to see the race <3

hahaha..

enjoyed myself today.

working tml, formal wear.. hmm.. sianz

ahhahaha.

gotta slp..

nitez~

pls dun anyhow give me hopes pls..

and Whooo~
exam's are officially over for me..
=)

same old behaviour patterns repeating itself..
sianz
hahaha


did quite badly for my papers,

well, wadever, since it's over then let it be ba..

haha

but was quite unlucky today,
halfway during my CMA paper, i'm having this sudden pain in the stomach n needed toilet urgently,
but i just REN~ till de exam ends
sianz...


Kbox-ed finally
near 6+hrs of kbox session <3

too tired for anything now..
*yawnz*

exams exams exams.
well it had finally arrived.

hmm will be having my human resource paper in 11 hrs time..
last min mugging n chiong-ing again.
hahaha..
when can i change tt dumb habit HUh..

haiz...

shall go back to my theories le..
haiz haiz..

jia you oh every1..

=)

read some friends' blog and get quite emo.

when the friendship's fading away..
drifting apart...

haiz......

Monday

Pics-Fish n Co

Friday - Sat

took it during our free time..

thursday

be4 movie pics

a little update

7/08/08 thurs

watched The mummy with mag, clover, n justis's dance class ppl.
studied at shaw house 5th floor with mag,
n went to meet clover n jian hui for dinner,
den meet uo with rest ppl, n movie time.. =)
quite like the show, esp de skeleton army, so cute~ <3

jian hui drive mag, clover n me home,
chatted abit on the car.
haha,
it feels good to be driven around. ahhaha

fri-sun (8-10/08/08)
working at expo, starhub, high sch musical on ice,
for 3 days
expo hall 2 is v far from de train station.. hahaha

-slack
-talk
-sing
-studied
-took a lot pics

monday ( 11/08/08 )
dinner with kenny,
i was late again.. =X

-dine at fish n co,
-yummy
-my dish was super big.
-huge drink.
-movie-money no enough
-missed my last train
-trained to paya lebah
-cab home.

n OMG, he had spent over 90 bucks today!!!!!!!
30 for my cab fare
den food n drinks
faint..

but thx wor.. =)
if u happen to see this..

tues (12/08/08)
went sch meet mag, consult cma teacher..
she's fun, n interesting..
hahaha..

wed(13/08/08)
meet mag in sch,
i'm late for an hr.. -.-lll
studied studied..
talk talk..
ahhahahaa

exam coming le.. stressed

Finally ECD's down,
and well, our tutor like the video we presented.
n i'm so happy abt it, coz i did it all by myself.. =)
felt de effort being paid off


was supposed to meet 10am with my grp to rehearse, n it's suggested by me.
but i overslpt n didnt turn up for it.
reason?
i was editing the video till 430am last night n couldnt wake up the next morning.
Mag said tt in the eyes of others, ppl might have a bad impression n will feel tt it's my fault.
well in fact it's really my fault.
but i had to complete the video so... i also dunno wad to say

i dunno.
feel as if i'm trying to rebute for myself.
maybe i cant even bother abt it?
well no idea n i'm really nt in the mood for it.

sometimes explanations are unnecessary, others may nt accept or listen.
so just let it be?
this attitude of mine will eventually get me into trouble one day...
i need to change..

i need to change my habit of being late n laziness..

after ECD, stayed back n took some photos,
we trying to pic-out the
-7 dwaft story.
-the split personality princess/witch
-the shortie prince, shorter than princess by ALOT >.<

lol..

alright back to my HRM tutorial.

当一切失去了意义，
我看不清，不明白存在的理由，

迷失在这乱世中。。。


什么都不懂不知不理，
LOST

＊栗色＊
你有一個聰明的腦袋。也是一個自我的人，常依自己的喜好來做事，有時會因為不大理別人的感受而惹上麻煩。對於愛情你很有耐性，當你找到你要找的那一位後，你不會再愛上別人。

true, nt true?

*things to be done by this week~

1) ECD ppt( THIS IS A MUST)

2) EBA ACCES ( hopefully)


was suprise to receive FunnyShit's call this morning,
talk a while,
though nothing constructive, n he was just calling to ask for some queries.
but it felt good...
i enjoy talkig to him.
for it's just so simple n carefree, n you've got nothing to worry and scare of when talking to him. =)
thnks SHITTY friend~ =D




feeling really terrible now.
why?
i myself dun really know the reasons too.
went halo bar again, sing sang played, but the atmosphere and mood was different. yep.
then pooled, heard about some unexpected n shocking news.
i really dunno wad to say...
drink more than the previous visit, calsberg~
having hangover now? ahhaa nah


sometimes wonder why others cant be just more straight forward
I DUNNO

was thinking of sometthings, n this brings my mood to deep hole.

LOST LOST LOST>>>>>>

projects ending but there's still so much to do


think i'll break down soon.. hahah

我 不 懂 到 底 在 期 待 什 么 。。






突 然 想 起 那 个 他 ，







不 想 想 起 ，不 想。。

haven been blogging for some time.
n this is just another drop by post

realy no mood to blog le.
wonder why,
is it the laziness? de lack of content or just tt sme things arent supposed to be known by all?

de idea of making this blog private strikes me again recently.

yea.
random random

will be havng my entreprising creation and development test tml.
all theories , from chpt 1 to 8
omg, n it's 30% weightage man.
n i've been here slacking the whole afternoon nt studying
kill me pls some1
ahahha

alright, shall go chong le.


some things i wanna rmb

went to some friend's bday,
n get to knwo some interesting ppl..
i'm happy at tt moment.

shall go off now.

HOLY MOOO MOOOO LA!!!!!!!

i was quite upset since 2 days ago, as none had replied my sms-es!!!
n till few minutes ago, i just discovered that it's not tt others refuse to reply me,
but that, all de sms-es i sent are all kept inside my OUTBOX!
meaning none was send out at all..

=.=lll

felt so speechless man, but yet relieve at the same time.
i tot wad siah, how come ppl all ignore me siah.
phew a false alarm man.

but NOW I CANT SEND ANY SMS AH!!!!!!!!
wad de!

hope it's nt coz i haven pay my bill, but how to pay when i had lost my bill paper.. =.=

alright, utterly speechless with myself,
wads wrong with me.
sianz shall go try out my tutorials now.
i'm tired!!!!!

Wed 18/06/1988

-project in the morning.
-met mag and bus to harbourfront.
-rained, so stayed in vivo, no sentosa for us.
-toysRus, (i dunn how to spell.)
-subway, camwhore
-bday song n cake.
-walk walk,
-Harry's bar with Mag n Benjamin.
-bus ride home.

Thurs 19/06/1988
-meet pris n deb @ clark quay
-walk walk around
-desmond passed me my present~ unexpected =)
-continue walking.
-we each bought something
-dinner at Waraku-pasta
-slack along Sing River
-a promise to take de Bungy thingy after Deb's A Lvl.
-bus home

yep.
tt's all i do during my bday eve n de actual day
haha.
nth too interesting.
simple yet happy.

tml having ecd meeting.
yet i'm still slacking here.
work in de night,
wonder can tahan nt.
ahhahaha.


~tired~

watched Missing last sat, mid night movie somemore~ =D
but well, de movie was a bit disappointment.
somehow, it makes me feel tt wad a stupid ending it has.
tot it was a scary movie at first.
in de end, it's nth of it, except for the first few parts.
n as de movie goes on, it's some romance things..
=.=

anyway,
had enjoyed myself lots, tgt with Clover, Mag, Janessa, Troy, Xiao Qiang, Jian Hui. yep hope i didnt missed out anyone.

haha.
oh my,
i overspent again!!!
was like ^&)_(@#$&(,
didnt even know wad i spent it on. sianz.


currently was quite lost n confused by many things.
too complicated n lazy to sort it out.
let it be then,
haiz.


some ppl leave, some enters in
there are some whom i really wanna them to stay, but no efforts' make.
some, whom, without any efforts, stays all along.
maybe, it really takes 2 hands 2 clap.
let alone when both doesnt moves at all.

well, well,,
i dun wanna think le
tml gg for maybe an interview?
i dunno n seriously dunno.

CAR ACCIDENT!

hm, just a short note on wad happen on last sat, 31 May 08.

first is HRM common t3st in the afternoon, anyhow crap a bit, hope can pass with a better grade.
n once again, i mixed up de dates, i wrote 1st June 08 -.-

anyway, den went to Justis's dance class with mag,
popping is wad we did if i nt wrong, some muscles clenching thingy which i cant master.
n after tt, Jian Hui teached us how to do freeze, n XING DAN succeeded! KOOL!

Jian Hui drive de gals( me, xing dan , mag, shirley) to a foodcourt beside SMU, n tata,
we got hit by a SBS double-deck bus when we are turning to left.

at tt moment, i didnt know wads going on, everything just blackout( coz i closed my eyes) and something hard knock onto me. ( turn out it's xingdan)

heard the sceeching sound, de drift which i never tot will experience in my life.
kinda addicted to the feeliing, de thrilling.

yep,
Jian Hui;s car was dented in, at the back door.
it's lucky that the bus didnt hit any harder, if nt, we may nt be so lucky to be safe n sound le.

some talks/ negotiations/ conflicts took place btw jian hui n de bus driver,
didnt realy know wad's happening, coz wasnt at the scene.

den went for some super,
my first experience taking night rider, 8N. =)
the bus gave a ViOlent jerk half way through the journey.
tot it's another accident, scare me to hell la.

den did something dumb n funny,

-went into the life.
-press the button,
-lift door closed but wasn't moving, air-con starts to off.!!!
-terrified, tot lift spoil, quickly press the button few more times..
-lift still nt moving OMG

in the end, it's me pressing on the wrong button,
i was pressing the 1st floor button, instead of my house. sianz.

end of post.
boring life.
no mood to study.
motivate me?

DIY dye my hair today.
seems a bit uneven,
but still quite happy about it.. =D

tml HRM test.
a bit worried.
all theories, how to survive through.

am i very busy?
am i wasting my time.
seriously i dunno it well.
just tired.
let me have a nice slp.
tml waking up at 8 again.
n look at the time.
haiz..
better turn in now..

when emo strikes....

脆弱时，会不自主地想有依靠吧？



太过容易相信，太容易期望，失望就越大。。



累了，失望了。



不想再懂了。。



no lies pls.

i simply hates them....

ASSHOLE OF THE SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!

EBA meeting with the tutor this early morning.
who's right who's wrong, i seriously cant determine.
be fair, we are all at faults i suppose.
all our reluctantness, laziness, fako-ness, yea, no one's spared.
n my heck-careness abt everything during the whole process..


but i simply dun understand why,
wads the point of trying so hard to argue, putting all your time n effort to claim tt you did nth wrong, and you should get wad u deserved! n nt to forget, PUSHING ALL DE BLAMES N FAULTS AT US! (maybe i'm over sensitive? but i seriously feel so!)

HELLO PLS, AS IF U DID A LOT K.
i still cant forgive ur tt stupid short chunk of RUBBISH which dont answer to any single part of the requirements i ask u to do.
ALL RUBBISH N CRAP!

n hello...
very fun is it?!!!
to snatch my slides HALF WAY THRU THE PRESENTATION!
hell MOO FUCKER!!!
if u like my portion so much, SAY EARLIER! n nt be sucha despicible ASSHOLE to do it on the SPOT OF PRESENTATION!!!
ass HOLEE cum SELFISH BUM!

when i sms you de next day after presentation on it, u dare nt even ans it, n insteed send me a foward msg on some olympics thingy.
WAD DE!!!

n hellooo...
i wonder who's tt *pretending angelic one tt say i wont bear grudges, i'll write in the peer evaluation form on wad u all had did!*
n yet, when with teacher, u are doing ur greatest to act pityful, and at the same time, trashing us down, say we back-stabbed u, say u very hurt and shock n blah blah..
whole chunks of excuses and RUBBISH crap tt u come up to lie to others.

n one more thing, if u dont wanna work with us,
be frank n say it out,
don try to act a gd guy when u are nt!
though your friend didnt do much n didnt turn up for project,
i'm nt as pissed by him than u .
your friend says he still wanna work with us, well, i dunno how true it is, but i wont go round doubting it.
BUT HELLOOOO!!!
you obviously showed tt u don wanna work with us,
just be frank n voice it out,
dont be so coward n worse than gals CAN!
DUN 1 DEN SAY DUN 1,
NO NEED TO ACT LIKE BEING FORCED TO!

"erm, erm, *silence* erm, since he's okay with it, den.. em, i'm okay too. "
WAD DE F**K , DAMN FAKE YOU KNOW!!!!
always tryin to act pity, act your gd guy, we bad ppl..
u say we back-stab you, HELLO, i'm nt TT FREE to do tt okAY!
who cares abt u..
u tot every1 will evolve around you!
u are just some1 tt no one's wants to work with, incase u dun know.
if u are really tt popular, den how come u are left with no groups with your friend HUH!

n oh ya, i still rmb how eager u seems to be trying to show the tutor the SMS which i send wrong,
i dare to admit i send it,
but yet u are nt MAN enough to say wad u really feel, except for being there acting tt u are very hurt! ASS


FAKER!!!!
BE A MAN K!

i once tot u are nt tt bad guy, but CONGRATULATIONS, u yourself proved me WRONG and u showed me tt u are truely INDEED AN UNTRUSTWORTHY, IRRESPONSIBLE AND UNGRATEFUL ONE.
i nv try to be mean to you k, except for that sms which was meant to be send to SHE.
but u simply gets me on my nerve mind you.
i didnt use any harsh words and expose your those lies infront of the tutor, n now I SERIOUSLY REGRETED IT!

U MAKE ME FELT BULLIED,
hell man, nt much ppl make me feel so strongly be4 k..
n now, i've finally seen thru you.
don expect me to be like be4.
u better get lost in front of me,
don cha dare to cross my lines again.
i SWEAR I WONT LET THINGS OFF TT EASILY ANYMORE! REGARDLESS HOW BADLY IT WILL HARM MY IMAGES N SO ON,
U JUST WATCH OUT YOU ASSHOLE.

I DARE YOU TO TRY N DO IT AGAIN!
CBCBCBCBCBCBBCBBCBCBCBBCBCCCCCCCCCCCCBBCBCBCBBCBCBC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




another thing, hated my emotion-lagg-ness.
i onli felt the anger few hours after the meeting with tutor,
if onli my emotions come earlier, things may nt be as bad as it is.
was quite emotional and agitated,
thx for the shoulder and the comfort.
yea, if u happen to read this,,
really thx lots..
*bow n muacks* =D

What Guan Yuan Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

read this from a mail..

突然觉得好像错过了什么。。
我，还是不够成熟吧~

。。。。惆怅中~。。。。


＊誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。＊

普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
---------------------------------------------
普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
--------------------------------------------
普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
-----------------------------------
普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。
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有些事，错过了不会再重来。
突然想起 _____。。。

OopS~1!!!

i'm a bad gal, should be chiong-iong my tutorial for tml de, but this is whre i am now..
LOL

okok..

hmm, ytd, went to work as usual, n i was LATE!!! ONCE again.
yea, late for 6min, n i asked the supervisors there if there will be any deduction in my pay for the lateness
n de ans i get was YES~ late 5 min deduct half hr pay!!!!

OMG< so much la.
but ok, wads de problem is tt I TOTALLY NO IDEA ON IT AT ALL..

jia lat la,
den i still v daring, tell those supervisors, den i start work at 1230pm la, *suppose to start 12 de.
hahaha..
but they told me cannot, coz my schedule was 12noon.. -.-

hahaha, as a normal human, of coz i'll wanna start work 1230 la, i'm nt at all interested in working free labour for half an hr lo.. sianz de
ahhaha

den hor, de stupid butch la, come fake fake with me, sian la, if wanna deduct den deduct lo, since i'm at de fault, no need to pretend gd de, see le even more PUKING siah~

i seriously DISLIKE her to de EXTREME!!!!!!!


phooo~ shall calm down.
oh ya, den break with auntie helen and Zell, n still kanna tio say by tt butch, regarding de punch card thingy.. SIANZ la..
onli dare say me de lei~
LOUYA to the fullest la tt STUPID BUTCH!

phoo phoo~ calm down calm down..

oh ya, break with auntie helen n zell,
hahaha, =)
ate at the food court, complain complain complain.
auntie helen left first, coz her break onli 45 min.. =(
den accompanied zell to buy Bday cake for HIMSELF~
ahhaha, n i'm HappY tt he took my words..
ahahhaa
instead of the normal n dulling "happy birthday" words written on the cake,
he put " Eat me, it's my birthday" (something likett de)
hahahaha..
=)
yea, likett den more fun ma...

den back to work,
hahaha.
heng no much ppl...

n oh, a male part-time working there le, desmond, n was really quite surprise to see some changes in him, his working attitudes.. =)
from bad to quite ok~ nice 1~ hohohoho

but came home V. tired..
n slack all de way online doing rubbish...


then TODAY~

late for my lecture, CMA, half hr late, so lazy to tab card also, just take my own sweet time to go in..
couldn't absorb wad de lecturer's talking, coz i skip de previous lecture <>.<
so ended up just plain copying of formulas n words..
n was quite moody de..
PMS period siah..
n sorry eh, my tone this morning was like so damn bad...
yea yea..
sry all ppls...

FMGT lecture was really a slping lecture.
the lecturer's pretty lame, but somehow de way he conduct his lecture is just putting me to slp..
yea, though i tried my v.best to concentrate, but still failed..
ended up dozing away..
yea yea...

ahhaha...

okok..
dunno wad to crap le..
shall go back to my tutorial le..
tml Npstrings-guitar~
=D

em em, time for some updates.

i lost my shoe bag in sch, nt really lost, but i left it in 1 tutorial room n haven had de chance to go retrieve it back yet, wonder will it still be there when i go back to take.

working working working,

went to deb's guitar concert last friday.
somehow i dun really know how to appreciate it, but nvm, i still quite enjoy myself there,
n ahhaha, someparts de sound is lik a bit soft, de lecture's dark, n tt makes me slpy..
sry deb,
hahaha

hm, bought a sun flower boutique for her, n i mis-pronounced it as "bou-chiq"
stupid..
ahhaha
desert at bedok hawker, den some silly photo-taking..
we are nt gd at it, i admit..
=)
hee, love them lots..


sch sch sch, work work work, den though i'm always with the same bunch of ppl, but i love their presence and accompanyment.
n haha, felt a bit sorry to them recently, coz having some emotional outbreaks.
ahhaha,


i dunno wad to say ah

hahaha, shall end it ba...